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okie, now im sitting here with Esther beside me talking crap ` lolX .. hmmmm ` now i dun believe myself anymore, i just have too much confidence in myself until i dun even listen to myself.. sounds chim worX, but its not ` i break promises , even promises that i make to myself. bit unbelievable, but things liddat happened and i dunno why i react liddat and hate myself after that. can't help it ` maybe im just a stupid little petty ger ger.. hArHaZ ` i think i just worry so much and i dun even know what am i worried bout and why am i worrying, haIZ ` sounds stupid wORx ` i just dun understand why am i so liddat ` =/ let's seee ... ...

First :: nobody did anything to offend me and im angry for practically nothing.

Second :: nobody insult me but i feel insulted and hurt.

Third :: Ppl are just trying to help and i get scared and irritated by their behaviour.

Fourth :: i even feel insulted by jokes.

Fifth :: I flare up at ppl for no reason.

Sixth :: I have constant mood swing and feel unhappy over trivial matters.

Seventh :: I feel inferior to almost every human being.

Eighth :: I hate ppl for no reason.

Ninth :: I dun feel like going to school everyday and tries to irritate my friend so they will comfort me (?_?)

Tenth :: Im lazy even to eat and tends to fall asleep every moment when im free.

HaiZ.. Guess nobody noticed all these ` hhmmmm ehh i forgot to talk in british akcent ` haRhAz . lame. actually everything appears to be scary now. relationships, studies, school, family, financials, cat, dog, everything !! =/ dunno y feel uncare for too ` just lame lar me. dunno y so paranoid, guess its time to learn howta control my emotions and not let it explode for nth =) ` i myself also dunno whether its coz im too paranoid or izzit ppl around me really dun care much.. haiZ ~ -- confusion confusion -- guess i muz really keep my mouth shut all times in order not to disgrace myself anymore. hhhmmmmm ` now phone dead, d-e-a-d .. should have charged it last nite. haRhAZ ` guess this is too long an entry... gonna go looo ... BBYYEEE ~~

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