Love, Hate, which to choose?

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24 July 2004

---= eMeriE =---

Hee Hee, ppl ~ OMGX can u believe it ?? Miss Kawaii Dots actually wrote such a looonnng post. I almost fainted when i saw the post lolXx ` Yay !! hope she continue writing =) okie, today .. the 2.4km ` OMGxXX + okie, i think im lousy lolxx run slow slow one ~ hmmmm, whats da timing ? 15.53 i think + lousssiii ~ lolXxX ` okie, drop that haRhAz `

haiZzZ ` gonna start working hard liaoZ + very soon... very soon the exams will be here haiz ~ actually, i dun dread it... i look forward to it + its just a process everybody have to go through ... including me + so i just look forward to it and work hard for it =) and maybe at the same time, also helping somebody with it ` hiE hiE .. maybe im really a proud person, maybe im just too ignorant and too arrogent ` i did smth wrong and i never know .... thankz Esther for telling me... haiZ ... yarh, im sorry but mayb its too late + i always expect alot from myself... and when it comes to ppl i care alot for... i also expect alot from them ... maybe that is wrong ` i just dunno ..

hmmm, everybody have different opinion... mayb i think studies is very important, but other ppl dun think so ` yarh, actually its true ... all the things we learn when we are in school are sometimes uneccessary .. we might not even nit to use them in future ... but for me, i think liddat --- since we are send to school, we dun we just work hard for it ? if not.... what else can we do ?? school maybe boring... or tiring . But if we have to do it... why dun do ur best in it ? i dunno ... maybe its just a stupid thinking , but i just feel liddat ... so far... everything i get... glory , satisfaction, success etc etc ` i got it all from school ... if not, where else can i get it ?

But thinking carefully.... i know sum ppl dun desire all those.. what glory what success ? ppl might just wanna slack thru their life .. lolXx ` but i feel that , if u dun do ur best in school ... or anywhere else, den are u even human ??? what do we live for .... ? i live for.... goals ? my dream ? den what so slackers live for ? if they just dun wanna do anything... den what do they live for ?? they live to slack ? dun dat sound stupid ... ? hmmm ... okie forget it men + i dunno why am i even saying all these ... OoOOooO ~ pro worX xy ... u ask ppl leave a note and den really got ppl leave... WoOoOOOo ~ specially for ya neh ~ hiE hiE =)

hmmm, tired tired -- dun understan y my mum just refuses to gimme a break ... im just tired ` yarh, mayb my room looks like a rubbish chute but i dun really mind lolXxX ` i cant help it ~~ im just too tired to even think, much less say clean up the room ... haiZ ` homework homework , they are just sickening ! like TODAY ... do the stupid english ... in the end we dun even nita hand it in _._ ` okie... so i hope Esther and Xinyi will gimme a break bout my studies... i've got enough ald ....... ! lolX .. i promise myself i will do my best and of coz i will do it.. its just that you all wont be seeing me doing my best lolXxX ` so relax and dun have to worry bout me LaRH !! i will be the last person on earth to give up on myself k!! pls lor... HarHaZ ` and its the streaming this year... u think i will just slack thru? den u are bloody wrong + i do what i promise myself and i do my best ... even if it means sacrificing my own LIFE . lolXxX `

and YARH ! my grounding plan is gonna start this sunday !! im determined this time and those who rebel shall DIE . lolXxX ` hmmm... very fast one marh, its only............ 4 days ... four days ONLY .. loR ! harhAz ~ its for everybody's good especially mine hiEhiE + i cant help it... there's HCL test on Thursday [ oMgX ! ] so its time i start to work hard and stop doing crap .. hmmmm , yeshhh ` anyway, i've got enough of Esther and Xinyi's nagging, so i believe this grounding plan will help my ear relax for days harHaZ ` nvm ... they are just concerned bout me, i know that deX [ nods head furiously ] haRhaZ ~ hmmm, so i know there are alot of ppl who sincerely care for me... thanks to all this ppl !! ty ty ty. hiE. And i know im always throwing my temper around at these ppl who sincerely care... so sorrryyy !! =) sorry sorry sorry ... harhaZ ` guess somebody ald sick of the word sorry le barh lolXx ` okie , i will quit it harhaZ `

haiZ... guess i gonna end now le, im starting to write crap... got smth very very important to do ... crazy ~ actually im bloody bored ` hiE hiE ~ so... see ya guys and smileZ !! == hugX==

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