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Ho-ho-ho~! t00ya guyees! HaRx` Not've been blogging for quite a while liiaaoo or should i sae for a very long time time ? Question mark! hahahaha~ It's been "getting on my nerves" lately cause our dear ah yi has not been blogging for almost a decade le, can someone please do something about it?! I tried asking her to blog but uh hemx nothing seems to be progressing..haiix mebe i should just admit defeat, veri tired liao. I'm not really one who can really persevere long one, not actually in this kind of area..hEeZ* Okies i'm not gonna emphasize this on this whole post, that might be abit too ermmx, too..dead duck? HahaRx i just kinda feel that someone is gonna chase me with a knife or hammer any sooner =D

Laughs* I recently realised that Nikki actually means alot to me hahaRx ermmm..maybe not really THAT recently.. It's just that some things had happened and the only living thing that I can ask for comfort is him.. He's just there when i need him. Huggin him close to me and being able to feel his warmth is really a blessing, especially at times when i'm feeling down and needed somebody to hug me. HeeZ* In case nobody noes, Nikki's not my boi boi, he's my..d-o-g.*giggles* I think, most probably, the only thing who'll love me forever is Nikki bahx ( sound so pathethic wor hahaRx!) but really, wanting someone to shower you with a love that lasts forever is bloody difficult. Everyone did sae that no love can probably lasts forever and yeah it's true but having Nikki don't really makes me think so, not at the moment. I know, humans and dogs are two really different things but the love they give is..ermms quite the same? Well mebe not hahahaRx what crap am i saying. But i think...if you want someone to give you a "wu tiao jian" de ai and love you forever..haRx go get a dog! waHahaHahARx~! I bet they'll be totally loyal to you..mmmm =)

Ya..Thinking about the past, sometimes really makes me smile and even urges me to want to go back to the past wor. Crazy, that's impossible! But when thinking them through, I've realised that there is actually lots of happy and sweet times that i once had and although it feels great and nice inside, it feels kinda "xin xuan" too.hEeZ* Well, one can't be living a whole life filled with only happiness and laughter, can they? That's ridiculous. There's always a time when one will feel down and had to face different kinds of obstacles. But remember, God did give us grace. At least, He didn't give you a life full of sorrow and misery..right? Think it through carefully. You might be thinking..why must happiness, ur xin4 fu2 be taken away from you? Well God borrowed this happiness to you, you don't actually own them. These people might have given you the love that you could have ever yearn for, the happiness you could have ever wished for but....these aren't forever. When the time's up, you have to return them to Him. This is not unfair, cause' after all it's His arrangement. Don't fret and think that you had lose everything - ur happiness and xin fu, always remember..He has a better arrangement for both you and me. He'll never let us live a life full of sorrow and misery...He won't. heEz*

Haww~ Oright turtle will end here liao. Take care guys! mUackS*

Thoughts for t00-day * I'm actually still feeling the same way..but i guess it's no use anymore..