--* Princess TuRtlE *--

Now feelin really messed up. Guess i made another stupid mistake..again. One month just passed and i've oreadi had this feeling all over gain' sigh. What really is the matter with me? Haven't i got enough of it? I guess i just have to say sorry (to myself), cause' i can't help it. I dun mean to get myself into this state..it's all an illusion. An illusion that had tricked me, i guess. Just how many times must i get myself tricked by it? O gosh..i feel like crying. I'm really really messed up. How i wish all this will just drift away like a dream when i close my eyes and go to sleep tonight..How i hope that tomorrow will be a brand new day just like one baby starting a whole new life..How i hope i'll not be the same Esther anymore, how i hope that i'll be a new person with a whole new soul and life in me. Sigh~ I can't, can i?...no?

Thoughts ** How i hope i'll have enough strength to move on..