haaii.
i'm sighing again.
JUNNY -
ok.
totally exhausted naww.
my body still can take it.
BUT MY BRAIN CANNOT.
")
cant take all the presssure siaa.
wed nite totally concentrate on history and amaths.
after that ytd think so much for both exams.
last nite brain totally dead.
cant think at all.
haiii.
think gonna fail geog or smth.
HCL if lucky still can pass.
i dunno bout geog.
dun think will pass anyway.
HAII *//
feelin so upset naw oso.
dun wanna go home again.
AGAIN.
cant stand myself.
dun understand me ?
" why tired dun wan go home rest ? "
i know it.
i know why.
mayb stayin out of hse make me calm and give me some fake hope.
fake hope.
to see you again.
confirm.
i know myself too well ")
dun wanna go home and face the wall.
and start to think more and more.
only to end up cryin more and more.
haaii *//
black friday.
today is black friday.
how black can it get ?
my life is totally black ald anyway.
GREATness.
heard it on the tv last nite ..
" what's yours will be yours, what's not yours... will never be yours "ok.
i accept.
mayb u are not meant to be mine.
mayb i'm not meant to be yours.
i tried.
hahaa.
to no avail.
think i have to accept it.
and just shut up.
rite ?
yes mayb.
though i'm sayin all this, i know i dun mean it at all.
" i accept "
i know myself so damn well i find dat freaking the hell out of me.
i know i'm not accepting anything in this whole lame world.
i know i'm not gonna accept anything like
this.i know it.
but i'm jus denyin it.
LAMEness.
i'm just contradicting.
stupid rite.
haii *//
think i'm jus gonna go home and die la.
die on the bed.
die on the floor.
die on the table.
die at the doorstep.
watevar.
i'm jus so gonna die.
dun ask me why.
i know it as usual.
but i'm not gonna tell.
ha lame.
byye ppl.
pray that i wont die so terrible.
pray that i wont die crying.
I'VE ENOUGH OF CRYING.
haii *//
- number of times cried on 10th - one.number of times cried on 11th - two.number of times cried on 12th - one. -i'm a crybaby.
wadevar can.
shitness.
ha.
dying off -
