Love, Hate, which to choose? <body>
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Y 08 August 2005
JUN.
i feel so tiny. and they are so inhuman... i'm speechless at how unreasonable i am too. somebody, save me.. my heart truly aches alot alot. i dunno how to put it at all. i noe it shouldn't be liddat at all too. yesyes, i'm stronger now, and i jus pulled myself out of hell and sent myself to a fake heaven. i tink i shouldn't be blogging actually. wad kinda condition i'm in now. totally out-of-this-world condition. i'm alright actually :) much much much better than that time. much better... bravo. there's smth i can praise myself for. [ for the first time in my life ] .
u noe wat.. there's alot of things stuck inside me. alot alot alot. i'm makin them stay inside me. i dun wan them to come out. i dun want to see them. i jus.... wan to cry.. really. but i wont :) not anymore. not anymore. cos i'm stronger ald.
to ther and dots : sorry gals. i was a wet blanket :( i promised i wont be so moody bout these things again in future, alright? sorry sorry, really sorry. sorry to ruined yer mood today for dots birthday :( hope u guys had fun... hope dots had a wonderful birthday !! happy birthday once again, dots. huggs. cyer gals !
to dear : missing u (" hope they will stop being so inhuman. hope u will rest well. hope u wont be tired anymore. cos u talk really very coldly when u are tired it scares me. loveya. bb.
