Love, Hate, which to choose?

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08 September 2005

JUN

bits and pieces wednesday7sept
730am rush bus358 bus15 smilesmile bus10 school class0107 slack pressure worksheets questions sleepiness break toilet library books digitalfortress angelsanddemons 0107 end dilemma farewell bus31 tampines shoppingcentre wanderaround tampinesregionallibrary books psychologyphilosophy fatigue yawns bus81 home biscuits:) water digitalfortress yawn sleep 830pm dinner chicken rice dramashows surprise letdown 1230am slp.

today is yet another tired day. i dunno why and i couldn't get to slp last night. i dunno wad i was thinking of but i was tossing and turning till ard one plus. i woke up early in the morning today, bathed and everything den went to school for maths supplementary. like i expected, the lesson was full of frustration for me. frustrations bout stupid things. but i chose not to show it. dun wanna affect anybody and i've learnt that i will feel much better hiding it:)

completion of the chemistry report. hurrah:) ther and i went to the art toom for guan mo hui but we were like one hour early. so to fulfill ther's wish to play the cello, i got my cello out of the drying yard and she was so enthusiastic bout it. haha. but soon after she starts to play, i start to laugh and she certainly was laughing non-stop too. it jus sounds weird. haha. guan mo hui ? nth to be excited bout, so much for going to give support. MY JUNIORS DIN TURN UP. anyway get well soon k yan en:) gimme more sweets haha. abt the guan mo hui, i'd choose not to say anything here:) thank you.

BOOM! i'm on 229:) on the way to huihoon's house to do the geog project. dreadful. but doing smth boring together with huihoon and xinyi can be actually fun. haha. how unexpected. and i've come to realise that huihoon is one who can really make me laugh without much effort. the way she talk can really make me laugh and feel happy about laughing haha. and thank you xinyi my dear:) for being a moron. lol. after this afternoon, i guess both huihoon and me have come to the conclusion that xinyi is weird. slow in typing and there's smth seriously wrong with her brains. HAHA. " jiatou kkae? " she meant to say jiayou:) and another more ridiculous one on msn -

hiangling: where esther go ?
xinyi: vut her hai. ( cut her hair )

omg. i wanna laugh until my head drop. haha. and she took about two hours to type vut her hai. how hilarous. mayb some of u dun find it abit funny but the fact that i laughed is good enough:) xinyi cheered me up by typing nonsenses. haha. i know dots wont mind being a moron to cheer me up. lol, she loves me:) yes? haha. i'm insane.

and i've enough proof to show that when not concentrating, we tend to write or type out what we are saying or what other ppl is telling us. unknowingly.

case1 i rmb writing smth on a bus and a group of students behind me were talking loudly about some tests. i was writin and listening to them. "tests, tests,tests" and there. i wrote "tests" without realising it.
case2 ther was telling me that louis tagged at our blog when she herself was about to tag. and she started laughing aft that becos she had typed her name as loo. omg:)
case3 huihoon was happily telling us about her experiences of looking up info about cyclones and volcanoes while typing the address of nationalgeographic.com and she really never realise that she's typing nationalvolcanoes instead:)

LOL. sorry if u think this is a load of crap. i can't help it. i have a crap mind:)

bus21. i dozed off while reading my book and it's really quite a long ride, i think. haha. i din have the appetite to eat when i reach home and i simply dun give a damn about eating. ~~who cares anyway?~~ so i jus lie on my bed, read my book and wait for time to pass. soon, i realised i'm really ravenous. i felt like fainting. weak legs, growling stomach. so i fed myself some rubbish. two ice creams, eggs and some chicken meat. haha. how pathetic. i wish i have potato salad. sudden craving for potato salad. drop down from the sky? not within the realms of possibility:)

SURPRISE! a pleasant surprise:)
the happiness of the surprise filled me instantly but left me almost as adruptly as it had come. sad. i'm really speechless. mayb i look like i'm giving up, mayb i'm really giving up. but judging by how well i know myself, i know i'm not giving up yet. i'm jus tired:) and the fact that i'm immune to so many things now is jus so good. i'm thankful. i'm saved from much depression:) i reckon what i should do now is.. shut my gob. forget. be happy:) whatever it is, i will try me best, keep my cool. trust me on that pls.

dun read this. lol.
my mummy(: is going for an operation quite soon. god-waful. i dun wanna think about it. i dun really wanna talk bout it actually. i'm doing everything i can to forget bout this. help me if u can. make me laugh:) or jus simply talk to me. even if u talk gibberish, it's perfectly fine. jus keep me occupied. and that's what i'm trying to do now. keep myself occupied:) read books, wander ard,laugh stupidly,talk gibberish, write gibberish. anything. all i know is " it's a major operation" enough. i'm a pessimist la.haha. you can never imagine hoe pessimistic i can get. lol. and it's jus me to worry like mad but simply refuse to show it. esp to my family members. i look ok i hope? but i'm very troubled by this:) as some of u might have realised, i'm those who will cry the whole nite about the death of a pet fish of mine but not tell anybody about it if i can help it. haha, if u noe what i mean. not that i've got a pet fish though:) i never mention that i cry doesn't mean i nv cry. if i cry in front of you, things are real serious. haha.

OK. the holiday is coming to an end and the good news is i've not even complete a shit and din get to do anything i wanted to do. and now, i'm in a dilemma i dunno what to do. what am i gonna do? help me pls, somebody. i'm in a dilemma. and i feel i have no time to think anymore. FINE. time's up and goodbye holiday. it will be gone soon.

it's sheer bliss to laugh with you.
Ther and Dots:) i love you guys like mad man. thanks for being happy with me. thanks for spending time with me. thanks for making me laugh, making me happy. haha. j.e.xhappytogetherforever ok ?

i'm thankful huihoon exists too, she can really make me laugh and :)

LASTS.
from digital fortress-
one night at a university performance of the Nutcracker, Susan gave David his first basic code to break. He sat through the entire intermission, pen in hand, puzzling over the eleven-letter message:

HL FKZC VD LDS

finally, just as the lights dimmed for the second half, he got it. To encode, Susan had simply replaced each letter of her message with the letter preceding it in the alphabet. To decrypt the code, all Becker had to do was shift each letter one space forward in the alphabet - 'A' became 'B', 'B' became 'C', and so on. He quickly shifted the remaining letters. He never imagined four little syllables could make him so happy:

IM GLAD WE MET

He quickly scrawled his response and handed it to her:

LD SNN

Susan read it and beamed. Becker had to laugh; he was thirty-five years old, and his heart was doing backflips. He'd never been so attracted to a woman in his life.

haha. how romantic.

HKNUDT:)

tell me you wont leave me ok? u mean the world to me, u know that. u dun jus disappear to nowhere and i dunno a thing. how will u feel if yer world disappear and u are left all alone. u dun understand. i'm in a dilemma. i want to give up ok?
i'm off:)

colourfuljun i want to cry

please believe me again at 10:20 PM