Love, Hate, which to choose?

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02 September 2005

JUN.

HA.
i was like dying to blog. wanting to blog. craving to blog. but now that i can finally blog.. i seriously dunno what to say. MAD woman. hahaaa. this week is way positive. so positively i feel so weird. it's jus a weird week. it has been a crazy week. a hyper week. a week full of ecstasy and simply nothing else. i guess?

now i wanna talk bout monday but i really dun remember what happened on monday. HAHA. monday seem to far away. so long ago. this is the problem of not blogging for long. i shall refer to my handbook then, see if i can recall what happened. ( i'm starting to sneeze again. goddddddd. pray for me ppl i dun wan my voice to get any worse. my voice is so bad now i sound so much like a man. i wanna laugh at myself for that HAHA ) tsk tsk. oh YA. there was the rehearsal on monday. teachers' day concert rehearsal. i skipped chinese lesson that day for the rehearsal. here is my bits and pieces on monday :)

my bits and pieces:)
" bad morning, things are so heavy. i dun like them. i'm not happy abit. i wan choc:) i nit sweets. i want food! but things changed. i love to talk, indeed. i want to laugh madly, talk crazily, giggle and gibber. it makes me feel good. going crazy make me forget all my troubles. i want to forget them. i managed to. but unfortunately i went unhappy again. becos of smth stupid. but now i'm gonna forget it. cos i want to be happy. i wan to be like you. u choose to be happy. "

erm. that's positive. i'm more than elated:) i've never been so positive in my life, i guess. ( as far as i rmb ) be happy for me please. becos it's smth to be happy about. i'm improving man. HA. another thing bout monday is that. hurm. i dunno how to say anyway. i cant say and i'm not supposed to say. it's just god-awful. all i can say is that it's just dreadfully lachrymose. that's all i can say bout it. so vague HA. but it's good enough ald, if u know this. on monday, smth really made me wanna cry out loud. it's just nasty:( ok enough about that. haha.

WEDNESDAY.
WEDNESDAY 31ST SEPTEMBER 2005.
WEDNESDAY 31ST SEPTEMBER 2005 IS A GREAT DAY. YOU MUST KNOW THIS. haha.

( i jus read darryl's post about drinking water. ok fine. i think it's time i learn to drink more water. HAHA. quoted from the blog..

*Interesting facts about water :
1. Cold water burns more calories (Drink more if you are fat)
2. Water naturally suppresses the appetite - You will not be as hungry for un-needed food if you drink ample amounts of it (This explains why you can go on living without food for more than a week)
3. Some vitamins can only be absorbed with the aid of water (Example : Vitamin C)
4. Water kills addiction on smoking .
5. Lack of water is the #1 cause of daytime fatigue .
6. Increased water intake hydrates your skin keeping it firm and healthy, transforming you into a stunning figure (Girls! Look out for this)
7. A 2% drop in body water can trigger short-term memory loss which will make you stupid (Which you already are, so dun make it worse)

So go on, be HARDCORE, drink WATER!

ok. thank you darryl for he's interesting facts bout drinking water. i will drink more water from now on. HAHA. sorry i'm digressing. this water thingy is really neither here nor there.. )

ok yes. WEDNESDAY THE GREATEST DAY OF ALL. how glorious. lol. i shall skip all the things that take place in school. everybody knows about them anyway. i shall not make any comments then. ( excuses ) LOL. so i was happily on the way back to pasir ris with vanessa:) be the way, evie was so irritating i really felt like kicking her. she was joyfully taking her own sweet time coming out of her princess house. and by the time we are at tampines, SHE'S NOT EVEN ANYWHR NEAR BEDOK. and we have to wait for her at whitesands mrt station instead of going to epps straight becos she's simply too princess, she needs ppl to escort her to the school in case she gets abducted on the way. how princess. and what's even nicer is that after waiting for her at the mrt station for quite some time, we then receive a call from her saying she will be taking taxi to the school so we can go to the school and meet her there. blockheadevie :b haa. she's just too princess man.

so we spent some time in epps, met Mr.Thiru and spoke to him for awhile. he's jus the same old him. and accordin to him, i'm jus the same old me too. " you still look like the P5 student i had years ago " i dun really appreciate that haha. does that mean i still look like a kid? :l how unpleasant. HAHA. and evie was said to be looking more mature ald. yes yes. i'm still not mature mayb. how sad. after that more ppl came. the usual ppl.. glen, jason,ethan,jovy, gerlaine, tricia blablabla. so me and sam went home after that to change and meet them at whitesands again. initially it was jus me,sam,gerl,evie and trish. after that we went to the library and met the guys. and after that it was like so chaotic man. the group became bigger and bigger and we had some sort of gathering outside the library. i guess we were making a din. HAHA , typical us. and we were so happily taking photos there until the security guard had to come up and tell us we cant take pics there. LOL. so we went downstairs and took all the photos we want. the rest of the day was....... i dunno how to say. HAHA. nice, but quite plain in fact. simple.sweet.nice. as easy as that:) simplyperfect. after that we part and i went home with sam, gerlaine and evie went home together. it wasn't a day filled with fun and excitement. but it's really jus so nice and happy to see all of my friends again. it's just too nice to be described. nobody can understand how much it gladden my heart to see them :)

whew ~ what a long description of GREAT WEDNESDAY. anywayall u have to know is that wednesday is jus GREAT.

for the past few days. i've been laughing alot.really alot. i just laugh and laugh and laugh. sometimes laughing at nth funny at all. but who cares? i jus feel like laughing:) laughing really helps. laughing makes me forget some unhappy stuffs. laughing makes me forget abt wanting to cry. laughing is great. i would want to laugh more:) i have the sudden urge to want to go to a concert. so i can scream, laugh, sing and jus simply go crazy. it's really nice. telling myself to choose to be happy really helps too. there are times when i feel like doing nothing but just cry and complain and shout and scream and turn violent and kill. but before i really do kill anyone, i tell myself with all the calmness in the world " choose to be happy " and there i am. happy and skipping around. i do feel stupid at times too, for feeling depressed every second of a day. last sunday, i tell myself it's time for me to really be happy. i dun wanna drown myself in depression all my life and sadden other ppl ard me by doing so. i do have better things to do then that. and this week has been very good so far. joy joy. i'm full of zeal now:) nothing but elation, indeed. let's jus laugh. let's laugh man. jus laugh away everything and face them with a smiley face.

i just wanna hug myself with joy for staying positive this whole week:)
i truly love myself more than anybody for this:)

and if u are interested to know...

my progress report
english 50.0 C6 18/41
mother tongue 56.0
mathematics 45.0 D7 30/41
Add maths 39.0 F9 21/41
social studies 62.0 B4 30/41
elective history 76.0 A1 6/41
geography 50.0 C6 24/39
physics 66.0 B3 9/41
chemistry 75.0 A1 9/41

average 58.0%
M.S.G 4.7
class position 20/41

how disgraceful indeed. the previous time i failed both humanities. now i HAVE to fail both maths. i dun wanna fail both sciences next time. so unpleasent:( but rest assured i wont:) becos i love nothing more than chemistry. haha.

okeh think it's time i end this beautiful and glamorous post of mine, though i have no idea glamorous in what ways:) cheerio !

let's laugh man. laugh with me. i want to laugh. i wanna do nothing but LAUGH.
i'm still crazily in love with yellow and i'm more insane than ever :) LULULU.

i'm also madly madly in love with you:)

i want to see you laugh with me .

simplyjun. a laughing her:)

please believe me again at 3:00 PM