JUN.

can you believe it? can u freaking believe it? know what i'm drinking ? i'm drinking coffee. this is somewhat a miracle.

and right now. i feel nauseated. i seriously want to puke. no, not becos of the coffee. nonono. my heart is at my throat and i'm gonna puke and i'm gonna break down into tears any second. i'm going crazy. i'm really going crazy.
gosh. god, tell me to shut my mind pls. somebody tell me to shut my mind pls. i'm going crazy i'm going crazy. i want to cry now and i seriously want to cry now.

i saw smth that nauseates me. i saw smth that i wasn't really supposed to see, i tink. i dunno what to do. i'm losing control. i can't control anything anymore. i'm gonna cry now. ther and dots are aslp behind me they are not gonna noe. i jus want to cry now.ther and dots dun ask me pls. pls pls pls. pretend u nv see this.

PLEASE. shut your gob. forget. be happy. i cannot. i'm trembling with fear. i'm going crazy. tears are coming out ald.

tell me what to think. what am i supposed to think from what i saw? i dun wan to think pls. tell me this is a nightmare. please. tell me it's going to be fine, please. please. please.

i'm vomiting soon. and i dun want to live anymore. am i thinking too much ? mayb i am. but it jus nauseate me. i dunno how to think anymore. calm down pls. i cannot. i dun want to say anymore. i'm gone ok?


dying.