Love, Hate, which to choose? <body>
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Y 27 October 2005
i've totally no mood. moodless. moody. i feel like screaming, jumping, crying, isolating myself man .. this is so DAMN irritating irritating irritating ..IRRITATING !
cries.
i feel like crying lar.. seriously. i feel like crying now.. this simply sucks . i hate being LIKE THIS. and fer goodness sake. WHY do i harv tu be like this ?
"oh God. please make me feel better. please.. cry. "
jus what in the world got into me?? why am i feelin so darn unhappy? this is SO DARN sick ! hais. sowi mum. i durn mean tu give eu that face. im really sowi .. but im feeling veh lousy now. bud .. do anyone even care? whardeva. im tired of thinking and jus plain hu shi luan xiangin. im sick of making wild conclusions. plain sick. im tired. i wanna jus sleep forever. forever and durn wake up anymore. so that i'll not feel anything. and think bout anything. i wanna go to heaven. yes. i really want to.. im havin mixed feelings man. sick. tired. anger. sad. frustrations. no happiness.
i want happiness..
i love my bed man. it makes me feel better. i love my pillow even more. cos i can cry into it. haais. whardeva. i wanna run home..
