27 October 2005
ahahahaha. danger ahead.
twotwo chalet was so nice man. indescribable.
haha. for hours we jus sat there. talk nonsense, laugh nonsense. i had that this-will-never-end feeling and seriously, i wished it will never end. well, it ended. now i wish for more :) drank coffee twice, no wonder i was so hyper man. the bad thing is i had that i-want-to-puke feeling from 9 to 1 plus. IT WAS HORRIBLE OK. but who cares ? nobody. so i jus went on laughing and laughing non-stop. laughter... better than ever.
night walk was nice.so alone, so peaceful, so still. ahhha so dark :) i wished u were with me.
some pictures in ryan's blog. so scary sia, suddenly i see my face in other ppl's blog. haha. yawn.... pictures? it's been so long.
two dreams. the first one was horrible. really sick like nobody's business. it was so clear, so sick. haha? it's reality anyway. it's a fact. but u noe wat? i wasn't affected at all. i woke up, roll my eyes, brush my teeth and happily skip to sch after that. yes, though the dream this time is far more disgusting than the previous one, but i dun feel bad at all, i wasn't affected. ya, it probably means i'm ok ald. haha. oh my goodness? :)
the second one is :o like mad. why in the world do i have such dream? it's so scary like hell. ok, ya, fine. it's a good dream, or rather a nice one. but it's so..... not real. and wad does having this jus a dream. i dun wan to lead myself to the wrong path. let's forget this dream, ok? :)
ya you. SO FAKE LOR. you can imagine how many times ther and me roll our eyes. it's almost like 2000 times per second. ok, that's insanely ugly. rofl. but noe wad? that's how much u act too. stupid act. get lost pls.
ok, another one. you and your lies. who do you think you are. all you care bout is them. ya... all them. wat's the use of saying and not doing? time and again u do it, u think it's fun ? wad am i ? some rubbish bin u throw all your rubbish into and ignore? if u dunno let me tell you. sayin things for the sake of saying is shit. and that's wad u're doing now. i wish u will shut ur trap and get lost cos ur words jus irks me. why? because they are jus a pack of lies. i've enought of them i dun wan anymore. do wat u wan, for all i care. i seriously dun give a monkey bout you. who the shit are you? jus rubbish, nonsense. exactly like those shit u tell me. vanish, u ass. so iritating. to hell with your reluctance and avoidance. get lost man.
ok. actually 98% of that paragraph is not true and i know it. i'm jus saying them cos i'm angry. haiii.... raving mad la. at this point of time i find myelf in a very dangerous position. dangerous = dangerous. and when i say dangerous, i really mean dangerous. yes, dangerous. ahhhh. jus so dangerous. ahha. wadever lor. earth still spin, sun still shine, whether i'm dead or alive. ya :)
ok, there was this one whole paragrapgh that i wanted to write and it's super sad. but now it's useless. i dun have to write it out ald. I'M SO HAPPY LIKE MAD I CAN CRY. haha. ya... whew ? let's go on.. dun stop pls :)
haha. my sis is so nice. undeniable. i remember how she always take care of me when i'm young. how much she dotes on me. now that she's always busy with her work and being vain.. i cant really talk to her . jus now when i was reading my testimonials. i read that particular one she sent. haha. after i told her and cried in front of her. cry in front of my sis? when was the last time? years ago can. i'm that always-ok-never-ever-tell-my-troubles person in the family. and my family members all know it. so when i broke down and cry in front of my sis. it's rather weird. and i believed her. i believe wat she said.. bout what shit huh? growing up and mayb there's hope next time. oh like real lor, sis. i believed her and now i noe what she said wont come true. but i wanna thank her man. she made me hold on and still have faith. though i was disappointed in the end. i wont tell her that disgusting thing LOL. i'm used to it ald now so it's no longer as disgusting as it was when i first know it.i dun wan them to look at me with that are-u-alright? look. jus make me wanna cry only. ya my dad nagged and said nasty stuffs which were all true, my mum advised. i din care, i went ahead. now that the ending is what they anticipated.. i sorta regret and i dun wan them to noe at all. i dun wan them to noe what i went through. cos it sucks :'(
oh my goodness. out of happness, suddenly i feel like crying. suddenly it's all sad again. " being always sad is rather uncool " thank you la, hurting can. and u dunno.. forget it. i wont tell u anymore. sad : '(
oh my goodness, belle is coming back. somebody to hug. but she's so tiny can. haha.
send good nite sms to me if u can. i'll be so glad.
hey blockhead
come hell or high water... i will wait for true love to come.
LASTS.
i saw her cry all because of you. she saw you with her, she couldn't beleve her eyes. you betrayed her trust, you broke her heart. that is not true love. it's jus a pack of lies and broken promises. u wont love her forever, u've ald stopped loving her. u ald go back on ur words. she look at other couples with eyes of envy. she was reminded of your hug, your warmth, your love for her. she started to cry and i told her.. dun cry please. it's not yours, you must let go. she replied, i'm dead ald ....
simplyjun waiting for her prince.
when i was the star, i really tried my best , i noe it's gonna be difficult, but i dun mind, i dun care. i tried at all cost. now that you're finally awake i noe all of my efforts were useless. it probably mean nth to you. now that you've got another beautiful star. it's time i vanish.. but remember, you dun see me but i'm there. jus like how i dun see those stars but i noe they are there. if u ever nit this fading star, it will willingly continue to shine for you. u're capable and u noe it. u've my light always. i dun mind giving u my energy to shine. it's ok if i fade off totally. wad's important is u still continue to glow brightly.... goodbye :'(
please believe me again at 7:58 PM
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