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18 October 2005
18 October 2005
JUN.
oh my goodness. ytd was really like shit. morning was like shit. afternoon was like shit. night was like shit too. nothing can be more shitty den ytd, believe me pls. That fucking THREE-FIVE EIGHT took 2000yrs to come and you can imagine how irritated i was ald. totally pissed me off. the whole morning was ruined becos of that freaking idiotic bus. i was in total bad mood and said last than ten words from 5am to 8plus. i hate it when i do that i know it's super annoying. but i'm in a bad mood and that's wat i do :l oh wadever la. ya, so i cheered up during the amazing race but actually i noe. deep down, i'm feeling rather terrible. i dun wan to show it and i simply pretend that i myself dunno i'm feeling miserable. all my friends were having fun, and in good mood and i thot.. " oh u should really shut up bout it." haha.
amazing race was nice and well-planned:) well done! councillors. haha. ya, i ate lunch so i'm supposed to feel better huh? wat nonsense. haha. so i went home, wif that sinking feeling inside me. i ignored it. i pretend that i'm alright. i lied to myself that i'm alright despite the fact that i'm the only person in the whole wide world who know that i'm NOT alright. ok, wadever. i did sum crap den i went to slp. that slp was hell, trust me. i dunno how to describe it, it was horrifying that's all. i was even thinking of all those matters in my slp. dream? i dunno man. i was really aslp. but i rmb thost thots running through my mind, as if i'm conscious and thinking of them. it's like a nightmare. i felt so terrible when i woke up. ya, so i thot i will feel better aft i wake up. LYK REAL. i wanted to skip dinner but my mum stopped me. oh.. watever. thank you. so i ate dinner. i felt bad suddenly. the feeling in me got worse. i felt terrible. i listened to mayday. i thot mayb singing will make me feel better. or so i thot. For a few moments i thot i'm alright ald. oh lyk real again. i saw myself avoiding er wo zhi dao. the ultimate will-make-me-cry-because-the-song-express-my-previous-feelings song. i knew then, i'm upset.
so i sang. sang happy songs with tears stuck in my throat. 9pm. shut mayday. walk to toilet. close toilet door. that's it. wash face. open toilet door. pour milk. drink milk. oh i'm really alright ald. no like real this time. ahaha. this is the consequence of avoiding the stupid sadness. Girl, face it next time. oh ok, fine:)
haha. so i dealt with this alone? ya, alone. well, nice:) all it took was some tears. it's so alright la.. it's been so freaking long since i last cried becos of "nothing". haha. it's freaky man, how i feel terrible and i dun exactly noe wad i'm upset bout. it's so terrible.. very ridiculous,very crazy.
thank you:) xinyi esther evie vanessa louis darryl and kekang:)
whether you wasted time with me jus becos i'm sad or u shoot facts as hard as diamond into my face or u literally slapped me. you all made me wake up. i'm awake now and i noe i was foolish. thank you guys. i love you all man:)
this entry is like rather short. HAHA. actually there was this whole chunk full of vulgarities that i wanted to include. next time ok? LOL. oh and i really love mayday and their er wo zhi dao. it's like as if it's written for me. haha. mayday made me cry and smile. haha. and nobody will ever understand how much i love 13 and yellow. i feel happier jus by looking at them. i feel rather sick when i see you, so by comparing, you can see how much i love 13. haha:)
the game is nice but somebody have to stop me from playing cos it's making me blind.
i finally edited my friendster profile. ppl, stop asking bout my previous one.haha.
waiting for true love:)
Bye!
LASTS
1 love grows by giving. the love we give is the only love we keep. the only way to retain love is to give it away ___ i will give it to the right ppl in future:)
2 u make me wan to sing and dance u make me wan to shout you make me wan to tell the world it's you i'm wild about:)
3 when a man loves a woman, he can protect, respect, forgive, support and be reliable. name it and he can do it for her___ so sweet!!!
4 what does not kill me make me stronger___ you know what? i'm definitely stronger now. haha.
5 if u're alone i'll be your shadow. if u wan to cry i'll be you shoulder. if u wan a hug i'll be your pillow. if u nit to be happy i'll be your smile:)
kekang, i sang and i finally realised wat's bothering me. it's actually pretty much like the same thing which u were sad bout ytd. i wish we can stop feeling sad bout the same thing at the same time, it's rather freaky ok? haha. so i decided to keep this to myself at that point of time. like wat's the point of telling u rite? WAD'S THE POINT OF TELLING YOU WHAT U TOLD ME YTD AFTERNOON? get it? and now i really noe what u meant that time.. how bad u felt bout those "dreams". i had them twice ytd. it was really hell. i dun even exactly rmb wat it was, the second one wasnt even a bad dream. it was smth good yet impossible. but the very fact that i dreamt of it seriously nauseate me. sorry i couldn't understand how u felt. and i happily told u " it's only a dream wat, why get so affected? " now i know. i really know. it's really horrible and i felt like dying. but obviously i'm still alive cos u din die too. HAHA. bye twin.so freaky
originallyjun still alive and kicking.
oh my goodness. ytd was really like shit. morning was like shit. afternoon was like shit. night was like shit too. nothing can be more shitty den ytd, believe me pls. That fucking THREE-FIVE EIGHT took 2000yrs to come and you can imagine how irritated i was ald. totally pissed me off. the whole morning was ruined becos of that freaking idiotic bus. i was in total bad mood and said last than ten words from 5am to 8plus. i hate it when i do that i know it's super annoying. but i'm in a bad mood and that's wat i do :l oh wadever la. ya, so i cheered up during the amazing race but actually i noe. deep down, i'm feeling rather terrible. i dun wan to show it and i simply pretend that i myself dunno i'm feeling miserable. all my friends were having fun, and in good mood and i thot.. " oh u should really shut up bout it." haha.
amazing race was nice and well-planned:) well done! councillors. haha. ya, i ate lunch so i'm supposed to feel better huh? wat nonsense. haha. so i went home, wif that sinking feeling inside me. i ignored it. i pretend that i'm alright. i lied to myself that i'm alright despite the fact that i'm the only person in the whole wide world who know that i'm NOT alright. ok, wadever. i did sum crap den i went to slp. that slp was hell, trust me. i dunno how to describe it, it was horrifying that's all. i was even thinking of all those matters in my slp. dream? i dunno man. i was really aslp. but i rmb thost thots running through my mind, as if i'm conscious and thinking of them. it's like a nightmare. i felt so terrible when i woke up. ya, so i thot i will feel better aft i wake up. LYK REAL. i wanted to skip dinner but my mum stopped me. oh.. watever. thank you. so i ate dinner. i felt bad suddenly. the feeling in me got worse. i felt terrible. i listened to mayday. i thot mayb singing will make me feel better. or so i thot. For a few moments i thot i'm alright ald. oh lyk real again. i saw myself avoiding er wo zhi dao. the ultimate will-make-me-cry-because-the-song-express-my-previous-feelings song. i knew then, i'm upset.
so i sang. sang happy songs with tears stuck in my throat. 9pm. shut mayday. walk to toilet. close toilet door. that's it. wash face. open toilet door. pour milk. drink milk. oh i'm really alright ald. no like real this time. ahaha. this is the consequence of avoiding the stupid sadness. Girl, face it next time. oh ok, fine:)
haha. so i dealt with this alone? ya, alone. well, nice:) all it took was some tears. it's so alright la.. it's been so freaking long since i last cried becos of "nothing". haha. it's freaky man, how i feel terrible and i dun exactly noe wad i'm upset bout. it's so terrible.. very ridiculous,very crazy.
thank you:) xinyi esther evie vanessa louis darryl and kekang:)
whether you wasted time with me jus becos i'm sad or u shoot facts as hard as diamond into my face or u literally slapped me. you all made me wake up. i'm awake now and i noe i was foolish. thank you guys. i love you all man:)
this entry is like rather short. HAHA. actually there was this whole chunk full of vulgarities that i wanted to include. next time ok? LOL. oh and i really love mayday and their er wo zhi dao. it's like as if it's written for me. haha. mayday made me cry and smile. haha. and nobody will ever understand how much i love 13 and yellow. i feel happier jus by looking at them. i feel rather sick when i see you, so by comparing, you can see how much i love 13. haha:)
the game is nice but somebody have to stop me from playing cos it's making me blind.
i finally edited my friendster profile. ppl, stop asking bout my previous one.haha.
oh my god. the "glittering" sea and non-stop wind of ecp. SO NICE!
Lastly, i'm so angry i can destroy all of them. the only thing that is stopping me is my love for yellow. yellow is so nice i cant bring myself to do anything to them. i swear that's the only reason they still exist. i swear. and i really wish u will go to hell, who do u think u are?
hugging my bolster is the nicest thing to do ever. i can lean on it whenever i want. i can cry on it and fall aslp. at least it's there for me to hug. haha:) nth else is there for me, seriously.
guys, if u suspect i'm going to commit suicide by jumping off a building. GO TO THE NATIONAL LIBRARY. 100% i'll be jumping off there, u wont be able to stop me but at least go collect my body can? haha.
waiting for true love:)
Bye!
LASTS
1 love grows by giving. the love we give is the only love we keep. the only way to retain love is to give it away ___ i will give it to the right ppl in future:)
2 u make me wan to sing and dance u make me wan to shout you make me wan to tell the world it's you i'm wild about:)
3 when a man loves a woman, he can protect, respect, forgive, support and be reliable. name it and he can do it for her___ so sweet!!!
4 what does not kill me make me stronger___ you know what? i'm definitely stronger now. haha.
5 if u're alone i'll be your shadow. if u wan to cry i'll be you shoulder. if u wan a hug i'll be your pillow. if u nit to be happy i'll be your smile:)
kekang, i sang and i finally realised wat's bothering me. it's actually pretty much like the same thing which u were sad bout ytd. i wish we can stop feeling sad bout the same thing at the same time, it's rather freaky ok? haha. so i decided to keep this to myself at that point of time. like wat's the point of telling u rite? WAD'S THE POINT OF TELLING YOU WHAT U TOLD ME YTD AFTERNOON? get it? and now i really noe what u meant that time.. how bad u felt bout those "dreams". i had them twice ytd. it was really hell. i dun even exactly rmb wat it was, the second one wasnt even a bad dream. it was smth good yet impossible. but the very fact that i dreamt of it seriously nauseate me. sorry i couldn't understand how u felt. and i happily told u " it's only a dream wat, why get so affected? " now i know. i really know. it's really horrible and i felt like dying. but obviously i'm still alive cos u din die too. HAHA. bye twin.
originallyjun still alive and kicking.
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