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22 October 2005
22 October 2005
JUN.
yawn. i wan to sleep, seriously.
results? wad results? HUH? haha. can u all believe it, i have no feelings at all bout my results. i totally feel nth. i'm like numb. fail ss, fail emaths. i dun feel a single thing at all. well, probably because i expected it. but.. aiya, wadever la. i jus feel nth. and nth is like really nth. NOTHING. and i'm like starting to dislike number5. 50,51,52,53 nice man. NICE. it's jus damn ugly la. sorry ther, i noe it's ur register number but i jus hate 5. haha.
collapsing. wat is happening ard me? i dunno.. i only noe i'm gonna collapse. i want to collapse. let jun collapse, she nits to. i can't hold on any longer. this time, no tears, no sadness, no warning. jus gonna collapse. i'm losing grip, i seriously is. i wont hold on for long. and that's becos u're jus like dirt on the ground. i only feel disgusted by your existance. nothing else.
"all stories come to an end. now your's have.. "
thanks for telling me this, kekang. i feel awake everytime i read this:) the ending of every story saddens me. but though it's saddening, i feel there's smth special abt that particular sentence. it's jus... so nice:) haha. ya, feelings change so heartlessly, ppl change too. but i wont change. i... accept changes. i accept how ppl change, i accept how feelings change. i accept becos i noe i have to. there's really no other choice:)
oh my goodnesssssssss. the previous entry in my diary is on 3rd september. that's like 2000 yrs ago. i'm scared man, seriously scared to write the next entry.i hope i dun wet the book haha. and the previous entries feel so long ago man. like YEARS ago. and the handwriting is so freaking neat, i'm starting to suspect whether i was the one who wrote it. haha. anyway here's smth nice...
27th august.
det, jus continue being my listening ear. i lost my sweet and understanding listening ear long ago. very long ago. but i still love that listening ear though it doesn't listen to me anymore...
omg? i wrote that? so deprived.. haha. ya, but it's so true. sad :(
alamak. chem lessons ytd was so depressing for me. i was like crying throughout the 3periods. ahh? ya.. sooooo depressing can, omg. i dunno how to explain. it's a kind of super complicated feeling. i was jus speechless... crying without a single tear. it's another why-am-i-hearing-things-that-i've-been-saying-for-the-past-2000-yrs thing. haha. ya, and that's the second time in my life i'm crying becos of such feelings. hearing things liddat for the first time was touching :l i passed my chem. so? oh.. wat the shit was i doing the night bfore chem exam? WAD THE HECK WAS I DOING WEEKS BEFORE CHEM EXAM ?! it's all shit. jus my luck, haha. i always and forever encounter emotional obstacles during exams period. u dunno how sucky it is. this time i managed to save myself at the very last minute. i could have done better.. will power? mine wasn't strong enough i guess. silly gal! dun regret, dun look back:) forget all those nonsense and strive on:)
twotwo chalet!! oh my god. haha. let's all high together man.well, i used to think to myself.. " why do ther and dots love sec two so much? " now i know. haha. becos aft thinking for awhile.. i realised that i love sec two the most too. i will forever love sec two the most. sec one sorta sucks, sec three sucks way pass the limit. sec four probably wont be any better. sec two is like the best man. haha. come to think of it. this year.... really sucks. i can't believe all that happened this year. it's rather amazing how many shitty ppl i can come across within a year. and how many ridiculous and sick situations i was in. ok, mayb i should not care at all bout those. they are jus shits. even more worthless than dirt on the ground. and to hell with those ppl with brains and hearts full of shit. ok, mayb in the first place they dun even have hearts or brains. wadever, idiots liddat come and go in life. byebye, i dun give a damn bout such ppl, seriously. ppl who try to ruin my life thinking they can ever succeed. shut ur gob and get lost la, MORON. but come to think of it, i should thank these ppl cos they make my realise how good my friends are to me. how much my friends all love me. the precious eight:) ok mayb seven, but i WANT it to be eight. haha:)
precious eight:) forever precious to me -
i love hugging my pillow. am i suppose to love it? no:) u dun have to love to hug? haha. i wanna drink coffee like mad:) go crazy :)
guys, strive on please. never ever give up (:
whr is our dear rosin? where is it when we nit it? it's almost like whr are u when i nit u badly.. where? i'm looking for you, i'm so tired. dun make me look anymore. where are you?
waiting for true love:)
bye!
plainlyjun crying herself to sleep.
ther and dots.
ok it's like very weird i'm telling you all this through OUR blog. haha. well, esp ther, i feel sorry that u're as disappointed as me. it felt so good, when u tell me with that reassuring expression that u have faith, like how i had too. yes, in the end i guess u and dots were both let down. obviously i was too:) but really, it doesn't matter anymore. nth is for sure and though we were all disappointed but at least... no regrets, rite? we trusted, we din stop trusting until the last minute. no regrets for us:) thanks for standing my me. I LOVE U BOTH:)
LOUIS CHUA:)
now i'm like putting your name in bold plus gigantic smile. happy? STOP COMPLAINING I TELL YOU. and stop singing on the phone, i feel rather traumatised can. haha. and btw, i wanted to stop u from gambling. i guess i cant? and probably nobody can.. nobody except you. ya, rainbows come and go. gambling is not good for health ok? HAHA. but whatever it is... i support u la:) byebye. stop being so unfair anyway, moron.
yawn. i wan to sleep, seriously.
results? wad results? HUH? haha. can u all believe it, i have no feelings at all bout my results. i totally feel nth. i'm like numb. fail ss, fail emaths. i dun feel a single thing at all. well, probably because i expected it. but.. aiya, wadever la. i jus feel nth. and nth is like really nth. NOTHING. and i'm like starting to dislike number5. 50,51,52,53 nice man. NICE. it's jus damn ugly la. sorry ther, i noe it's ur register number but i jus hate 5. haha.
collapsing. wat is happening ard me? i dunno.. i only noe i'm gonna collapse. i want to collapse. let jun collapse, she nits to. i can't hold on any longer. this time, no tears, no sadness, no warning. jus gonna collapse. i'm losing grip, i seriously is. i wont hold on for long. and that's becos u're jus like dirt on the ground. i only feel disgusted by your existance. nothing else.
"all stories come to an end. now your's have.. "
thanks for telling me this, kekang. i feel awake everytime i read this:) the ending of every story saddens me. but though it's saddening, i feel there's smth special abt that particular sentence. it's jus... so nice:) haha. ya, feelings change so heartlessly, ppl change too. but i wont change. i... accept changes. i accept how ppl change, i accept how feelings change. i accept becos i noe i have to. there's really no other choice:)
oh my goodnesssssssss. the previous entry in my diary is on 3rd september. that's like 2000 yrs ago. i'm scared man, seriously scared to write the next entry.
27th august.
det, jus continue being my listening ear. i lost my sweet and understanding listening ear long ago. very long ago. but i still love that listening ear though it doesn't listen to me anymore...
omg? i wrote that? so deprived.. haha. ya, but it's so true. sad :(
alamak. chem lessons ytd was so depressing for me. i was like crying throughout the 3periods. ahh? ya.. sooooo depressing can, omg. i dunno how to explain. it's a kind of super complicated feeling. i was jus speechless... crying without a single tear. it's another why-am-i-hearing-things-that-i've-been-saying-for-the-past-2000-yrs thing. haha. ya, and that's the second time in my life i'm crying becos of such feelings. hearing things liddat for the first time was touching :l i passed my chem. so? oh.. wat the shit was i doing the night bfore chem exam? WAD THE HECK WAS I DOING WEEKS BEFORE CHEM EXAM ?! it's all shit. jus my luck, haha. i always and forever encounter emotional obstacles during exams period. u dunno how sucky it is. this time i managed to save myself at the very last minute. i could have done better.. will power? mine wasn't strong enough i guess. silly gal! dun regret, dun look back:) forget all those nonsense and strive on:)
twotwo chalet!! oh my god. haha. let's all high together man.well, i used to think to myself.. " why do ther and dots love sec two so much? " now i know. haha. becos aft thinking for awhile.. i realised that i love sec two the most too. i will forever love sec two the most. sec one sorta sucks, sec three sucks way pass the limit. sec four probably wont be any better. sec two is like the best man. haha. come to think of it. this year.... really sucks. i can't believe all that happened this year. it's rather amazing how many shitty ppl i can come across within a year. and how many ridiculous and sick situations i was in. ok, mayb i should not care at all bout those. they are jus shits. even more worthless than dirt on the ground. and to hell with those ppl with brains and hearts full of shit. ok, mayb in the first place they dun even have hearts or brains. wadever, idiots liddat come and go in life. byebye, i dun give a damn bout such ppl, seriously. ppl who try to ruin my life thinking they can ever succeed. shut ur gob and get lost la, MORON. but come to think of it, i should thank these ppl cos they make my realise how good my friends are to me. how much my friends all love me. the precious eight:) ok mayb seven, but i WANT it to be eight. haha:)
precious eight:) forever precious to me -
i love hugging my pillow. am i suppose to love it? no:) u dun have to love to hug? haha. i wanna drink coffee like mad:) go crazy :)
guys, strive on please. never ever give up (:
whr is our dear rosin? where is it when we nit it? it's almost like whr are u when i nit u badly.. where? i'm looking for you, i'm so tired. dun make me look anymore. where are you?
waiting for true love:)
bye!
plainlyjun crying herself to sleep.
ther and dots.
ok it's like very weird i'm telling you all this through OUR blog. haha. well, esp ther, i feel sorry that u're as disappointed as me. it felt so good, when u tell me with that reassuring expression that u have faith, like how i had too. yes, in the end i guess u and dots were both let down. obviously i was too:) but really, it doesn't matter anymore. nth is for sure and though we were all disappointed but at least... no regrets, rite? we trusted, we din stop trusting until the last minute. no regrets for us:) thanks for standing my me. I LOVE U BOTH:)
LOUIS CHUA:)
now i'm like putting your name in bold plus gigantic smile. happy? STOP COMPLAINING I TELL YOU. and stop singing on the phone, i feel rather traumatised can. haha. and btw, i wanted to stop u from gambling. i guess i cant? and probably nobody can.. nobody except you. ya, rainbows come and go. gambling is not good for health ok? HAHA. but whatever it is... i support u la:) byebye. stop being so unfair anyway, moron.
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