back here again. ha. :D
and its darn freeeezing here man!




hai. as each days past cluelessly and the hols are still here, im starting ter feel lonelier and lonelier man. everyday i'll jus wake up and then realise that, oh, it's jus another day and i'll jus gonna be alone again. im starting to hate my home, my phone, ppl, the hols, and soon. myself. arhgg. im starting ter wonder if anybody knows whether i even exist. durn tell me go round askin ppl out ne'more la. im tired of askin. cant ppl do the other way round? why mus i always be the firs ter ask eu guys? im sick of takin initiative. oh wells. whatever. ppl are busy. yes. forget it. i shall jus shut my mouth. ___________ zips.

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but ha! thanks Jun and Loo. yesterday was FUN. (: veh fun. bowling's darn fun with Loo striking durno how many million times and with Jun's wanting ter bowl correctly and accurately. (: set ar? nex time we gonna bowl together again . and yes of course. plus our dear Dots (; winks. and we gonna bowl real early at Marina Sq nex time. so cheap can? :D and it's gonna be so quiet we're gonna hear the "piang! " and not the "tu-dum" ! dots... bad sound effect. hahaha! OKEI ? set kei ?? HEE :D no. hey! we should get all the twotwoers ! LOL.
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okei. im jus not feelin really right now. things are changing i think. and i pray dart its not. but i durn find myself understandin her anymore.. i durn understand her. and she durn too yea? i guess. sth feels different. and i durno howtu say it. its jus different. and i durno der sth either man. arhg. sometimes, words that i wanna say jus cant come out. but i used ter jus blabber everything and anything ter her. but now. i'll jus hesitate and think thru whatever im gonna say and then find myself saying, "hai, neh mind it". she's my close fwen. and yea. we used ter be so close! but now. i find ourselves getting distant. okei, if it is, i durn even wanna admit it dart we are. cos i seriously durn wan us ter get distant. i want things ter be like before. yes. like how we used ter be.....
thinking of this hurts man. and jus by typing this, i really feel like crying. what's wrong ? hai..


maybe you know who eu are.. ^SHE



oh. im goin overseas on 5th dec i think. hai. some church stuffs. maybe can jus take a break and go away frm everybody. haha :D no la. i will miss everybody in fact. but nobody misses me... so sad. LOL. dumb. that's so dumb. lol. but neh mind la. its ok not ter miss me. im not ter be missed anyway. :D hahaha. and oh ya. i realised dart it's unfair ter say, "no one cares bout me". yes. it's unfair. cos there's loads of ppl who cared bout us. ppl who we took their care and concern too much fer granted dart we neh ever think bout it. and its always and usually those ppl that durn care bout us that we find their cares much more precious. dumb rwite? and then when they durn care, we'll start blabbering nonsense dart " no one cares fer me" . okei. i find it stupid la. lollol. eh? what am i sayin? hahaha.



okay. end here.


ther (:
im feelin better.