Jun.


ahhhhh. this is shit.


ok. a few days ago i was thinking to myself.. haii, why are all my friends troubled by this kinds things? it's so kinda not worth it. we are all still young after all, rite jun? and i answered myself, YES. ok what now? I'M BEING TROUBLED BY THIS KINDA THINGS!!! aiya, it's damn shit. haha. actually in my situation, the feeling is nice. the feeling is nice..... but bit sucky. arrghh. all i can say bout this is that it's nice and sucky. and it's shit man. like why am i so stupid, rite? first, i see ppl being troubled by this kinda things. and i tell myself, gal, dun get urself into this kinda shit. at least, not so soon ok. AND NEXT I FIND MYSELF IN THIS THING. ahhhhh, how? guys, how? i'm so dead this time. GRRR. and becos of this thing, i manage to fall aslp only at 3am in the morning. i went crazy last nite. my mind so occupied with this thing. so sucky. haha, then i started to talk to myself. "this is killing me man. how? how?" "ok,relax,let's tell jon (: ok?" "NOOOOOOOOOOO!!!" eh jon, it's not i dun wan to tell u, it's i CANT tell u. and so i smsed sam, and told her all bout it. she din reply :l haha. cos she's sld aslp la duh. and it's jus so bad la. it's bad. but it's nice(:


hahaha. co practice today is so funny. yes.. funny but cold. DAMN COLD SIA. and peng you is so nice, really reminds me of my friends and also how we went to play at temasek poly that time. haha.. memories. speaking of memories, i've come to realise i dun like memories. why? because the fact that they are memories is kinda sad. why in the past there's these ppl and these things but not now? why no more? haha. that's how i think. and it's really kinda sad. so whenever ppl say things like "those were the days" and "these are memories" i jus feel. good memories? but the fact that is no longer there. its jus so sad la.


all bout love. is so sad man. i dun even know why i ended up watching it. thanks to woo. well, yes i cried. i cried like siao can. that part where the couple quarrel. the gal cry like crazy, the glass break, andy lau punch the television. waaaa, climax. haha. THIS particular part, endless flow of tears sia. i really cry like crazy. somehow, andy lau punching the television remins me of glo. dun ask me why cos i dunno how to explain. haha, ok it's not like glo punched the television before but whatever ok. haha. and that part where andy lau rush out, slipped and fall. slow motion and everything. damn nice can. and the way his poor head hit the floor for like two thousand times. OUCH OUCH OUCH OUCH. haha. sound effect damn exaggerating but nice. haha. and i felt stupid after awhile. why am i crying? haha. kekang look so bored lor :l I'M NOT CRYBABY OK. haha. but i feel so good after the movie. crying in the cinema for the first time in my life felt good (: THIS time, i really cry like mad. haha.


i make two friends close to each other again? haha. now i wonder, did i really make a difference? did i? (: but anyway, it's really nice to see u two close again. everybody close close. HAHA.


belle is very very super violent, i dunno wad's her problem. she either want bite me or pinch me. am i that detestable? argh. she used to like me so much. now she treat me liddat. ouch, heartache. it's like loving a person at first den hating the person later. why am i being treated liddat always? damn shitty man. haha. belle is violent, and i'm being abused. sob. somebody save me. haha, nonsense. anyway, this skin is really damn nice. ok, thanks to ther (: and now i can FINALLY STOP USING WHITE COLOUR FONTS. totally pissed me off. can u imagine trying to edit and u are looking at white colour words and u muz highlight the words to find the part that u wanna edit? irritating like hell lor.

YES. finally i got some new pictures. haha.only a few lor. go friendster see (: it's SAM'S idea we take pictures in the middle of the road ok. not my fault lor. dun scold me. not my idea to do dangerous things can. haha. NO CARS ! the road is ours :) not nice? take again. CARS APPROACHING! MY LIFE ! haha. so crap. no.. walking by the side of the road is even nicer. how i walk slowly with sam far behind me. how cars, buses and motorcycles zoom past me. waa.. nicer than ever. i love walking by the side of roads at night:) jus for kicks. haha. i wont die la pls.

haha. my mum loves me alot (: i love my mum so much too. i called and said..


me: i go anyhow walk with trish.
mum:NOW DEN TELL ME.
me:i forgot ma haha.
mum:i specially cook rice for u never cook porridge den u dun wan come back eat.
me:haha, ok u leave it for dinner i will eat.
mum:ok la, bye (:


haha. and last nite, i saw some fishcakes in the form of bears in my soup. i asked.

me:haha, why so cute one, fishcake in the form of bears.
mum:to attract ur attention so u will eat it.
me:haha ok like real.
mum:u keep skipping meals and dun wan to eat rite, so i buy this and treat u like a kid.
me:....

HAHA. my mum is cute (: and i know she's observing me always. lol. ok i swear i will try to eat more. and let's forget that i weigh 40kg now.

i love cello section (:


i love cello and bass section (:


LASTS.

adapted from ryan's blog (:


well, actually chatted a lil with J of JEX last night...dont really recall what we were talking about... ( or rather i wouldnt want to)but we stumbled along the topic of clowns...and we concluded clowns are noble people. one of the most.well... clowns make people laugh, make people feel joy and fun...at least they try to =)i used to be heck scared of clowns (like some other people i know.)...i guess i never thought... never knew...that clowns are kinda sad people...

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i went to europe once and i was walking along the street...then along hte alley i saw a figure squatting/sitting on a chair down by the corner...bottle in hand. most likely alcohol.just another bum, you might think.alas, donning some of the most vivid colours youve ever seenhair the colour of the crimson rosesmakeup as thick as thick pie...and that red nose.unmistakeable.but what should have been a smile...replaced with a frown.a sad clown.sadly, this rhymes.

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clowns are generally sad people.however they prove their worth and do their best to push on...and make others happy.

=B3at=





happyjun. in stupid trouble.



SAM (:


wat's ur prob man. listen gal, i have never ever blame u for being busy and all. i will never ever blame u for that too. i mean, it's not like i know u only ytd or wad. five years can, miss. FIVE YEARS LOR U THINK WAD. u tell me, this five yrs which stupid day u are not busy? NOT A SINGLE DAY LOR. come on la, evie trish and me all know u as that forever-as-busy-as-the-prime-minister woman lor. and we so love u for who u are. i mean, trish and evie, can u all imagine one day sam sms and say things like "today i damn free" "i feel so bored at home" ? it's like me and evie saying "hey, we are 170cm man! " NOT WITHIN THE REALMS OF POSSIBILITY CAN. haha. lead ur busy life la, sam. but i really hate it when u do things like gimme a whole list of injuries u substain from taekwondo and then tell me u cant go jogging with me. WTH. and haha, taking pics on roads nice rite? damn fun (: cya gal. will miss u lots.