Love, Hate, which to choose?

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24 January 2006

u're so super gay looking man.

well, today is so sleepy. practice was like quiet, sorta. cos cadence and xiaochun went for learning journey. audrey and huiping too. and that leaves me, the only senior there. i was like rather moodless at first, so i slacked, sat ard, even slept cos i felt really tired. den after that i dunno why i felt enthu den i played like siao. played waltz and hungarian dance no.5 so many times my hands ache after that. den weetong asked whether i jus got ditched or smth, rofl. i was very engrossed in playing i guess, i mus have looked really emotional to make him say that. oh well (: and i missed xiaochun and cadence!

we were walking den ther said to me "eh, i dunno why but i suddenly miss 2/2." i smiled, cos i felt the same. it's always out of nothing, for no particular reason. during practice, i went to the toilet on the third storey. going to that toilet sorta reminds me of sec one and two times. so nice man(: i went to see our 2/2 classroom, 03-02. it look so different now, so different from sec two. i will say its beyond recognition. seating arrangement different, colour of the classroom different. even that metal cupboard was shifted. well, how much things can change. kinda sad, that there's no longer 2/2. yeah, but it's jus reality(: den ther and me went there another time after that. we chatted there outside the classroom. tried to recall our seating arrangement, haha. we only managed to recall those sitting around us, actually. i was sitting in the middle of the class. yi on my right, ther behind yi. den ryan was behind ther. and behind ryan was yulun. behind me, michelle and behind her, jiakai, follow by yongwei. beside jiakai and yongwei were hiangling, huihoon, lifang and ruiqi. sandy and qingjun right in front. well, i had some difficulty remembering who was the one sitting in front of me. dunno why i have no impression at all. sorry louis:( HAHA. and how we always go to sch very super early in the morning, go to our classroom, copy hw, laugh, crap, do rubbish. how i used to sweep the floor in the morning when i feel like it, how the toilet is jus beside our classroom, how we stay back after sch and slack in the classroom, draw nonsense on the whiteboard and stuffs.

yeah, these. memories. ~~sadly, gone.~~

yesterday was undescribable, seriously. ups and downs in one single day. so amazing, haha. actually overall the day was quite good. but when things get irritating, it's really irritating u see. cant stand it sometimes, haha. and i cant believe how suay i can get man. jus so super suay. but ahhhhhh, nvm. so used to this kinda stupid stuffs. and interesting things do happen(: interesting things that made me laugh. *winks.

anyway, happy birthday to lifang! and sorry for the belated present x)

saturday and sunday were like shopping days, haha. sat with my parents, the first thing we did - buy spects. yay, my new spects awaits(: and i dunno why, i'm quite into jeans this year. yeah, so i bought jeans, din even buy skirt or anything. and i spent $22.90 on a pencil case. but normal ppl wont understand my thinking. to me, my pencil case is like my life, rofl, sound so obssessed. yeah, so new pencil case = new life(: and i'm gonna get a whole new set of stationaries soon. i'm so crazy lah, haha. i dunno wad's my prob seriously, so dun ask me, lol. well, the yellow is really nice(: and now, i'm waiting for money to drop down from the sky so i can buy canvas shoes that i want. ahhhhh, wadever it is, i bought everything i wanted to buy, i'm left with shoes to purchase(: den sunday was with sam. so much for accompanying her to go buy her clothes. in the end, i return home with more clothes bought than her, wad the hell, lol. but she jus cant seem to find anything she like, weird. we took mrt to somerset then walk and walk and walk for like two milllion years, then we reached zara. IT WAS HER IDEA TO GO THERE. in the end? she din even buy a shit, and i bought two shirts. so funny lor, lol. yeah, and we returned home real late:(

my mum is worried that i'll suffer from malnutrition. which is so ridiculous man. i do eat okay.

i was supposed to meet shuyu to pass her the sleeping bag and co photo from cadence. well, since i'm nice(: rofl. den the most idiotic thing is, my phone blacked out at the very last minute. so when i reached mjc, i din see shuyu. i waited, no sight of fishy:( so i walked off, in hope of finding a pay phone so i can call her and ask her where is she and to tell her i'm there ald. i walked and walked and walked, NO PAY PHONE. i gave up den went back to mjc entrance feeling rather frustrated and tired. den i saw shuyu(: and she was happily smiling at me. though she walked to another bus stop to look for me and walk back again when she cant find me. i dunno why, but seeing her smile, i felt so much better, so i relaxed after that. well, i find it magical, how a smile of my friend can wipe away all my frustrations and negative feelings. so at times, to make me happier, all u have to do is

s m i l e.

and i will smile back(:

outdated photos! yeah, and memories(: