Love, Hate, which to choose? <body>
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Y 12 February 2006
first, i'm like crippled. so in need of a wheelchair ald. how am i gonna walk tmr? second, i'm aching from head to toe. so much discomfort. third, gastric, i dun get why. i ATE dinner okay.
den, readings are depressing, i dun wanna read anymore. and, readings are so contradicting with wad's happening now. lastly, i dun like to be forced to slp:(
i'm mentally so unstable, physically so critically ill, i think my life is so gonna be over soon. like, mayb tmr or wat. i feel like i dun have the time to address my unhappiness. and there's alot of them, i can feel. like, really at the back of my idiotic head. i dun have the time. whr did my time go to eh? i dun have the time to go and care bout my physical condition, it's like deteriorating. lack of slp, food and warmth. i'm so on the way to hell ald. and i figured, my time was spent reading depressing stuffs. i'm such a blockhead. i'm jus making things worse lah. and i think i mus either go slp or go to the hospital. the discomfort is killing me,seriously.
so gonna wake up early tmr to do homeworks. it's really time i buck up. i dun wan to ever live in this messy state of life again. it sucks, and i feel so confused and lost. i dun even enjoy my roamings anymore, i actually feel lonely when it's jus so quiet. hell. my world is ending.
sorry john, i lied:( ther came online u see. and i'm really off to bed now, cos i bloody hell cant take it ald. jus 20mins later then wat u thot it was. i allow u to stab me then, for lying. yawns.
ohh, i gave way. click! and okay, i'm not hurt. so intact, and this means everything bout u is history ald(:
