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26 February 2006
26 February 2006
i wanna eat chocolatessssssss:(
okay. tis morning was stupid. set alarm to wake up early, then fell back to slp cos i was like " aiya, so happy finally no nit wake early can slp more. yayyyyyyyy. " yeah, den went back to slp. then woke up at EIGHT THIRTY. like wth, that's bloody late. so i rushed, then went to school. sorry louis, i guess u waited like damn long until u were so bored and went to take pictures of the koi pond. rofl. and thanks for spending time to teach me maths and physics. i nit more! ahaha.
den aft that was eating at mac at tampines. yayyyyyy. fries and nuggets(: then went to get a replacement for louis's dramaly confiscated soccer ball, lol. at sportslink. haha, the first one that we saw, the shiny one. ahahhaaha, so nice lor. its so shiny we can like see our reflection on the ball. not kidding. not exaggerating okay. yeah, so looked and looked, still, think that shiny ball is the nicest. then had to make decision. so one or two? i chose two. ahahaha, it's call fate. it's that shiny ball. yayyyyyyy. I CHOSE IT OKAY(: so bought it and went home. my books were making me drop. i thot my wrist was gonna come off or smth. then can see those stupid disgusting veins literally popping out. YUCKS.
reached home. rush.
yayyyyyy i cried today(: man. i think, from now on, the only times that i'd really cry out loud and happily is when i'm in the cinema. and so, i love movies(: it's nice to get carried away, totally engrossed into the movie, and not think bout anything in this whole wide world. nth, jus the movie(: this is bit outdated ald anyway. inotstupidtoo was nice lah, really tells wat we teenagers think. totally. anyway, that part where tom fixed the labtop for his dad and happily brought it to his office for him, yet got a scolding in the end. well, i think this happens not only between children and parents. it happens to everybody. between friends, couples, any kinda relationship. it happens. so u jus take ppl for granted, and dun even appreciate wat they have done for u. and yet, worse still, in return for their kindness, throw them some totally ungrateful attitude and rubbish. jus craps. it happens. okay, wadever about that part. one scene that left a great impression was that part where chen cai's dad fell and his head hit the ground and blood jus came flowing out. yeah, that part left a deep impression. first, they punched him when he went to his son's rescue. like ouch can, my heart totally felt pain when i see them punching him. slow mo somemore sia, effect, ahahaha. then he actually fell, and then row. then hit the ground. then :(((((((
tears jus came, and flow. couldn't control at all. and before i know it, tears were flowing out uncontrollably. i din even felt like tears were gonna come out. and they were ald flowing down my cheeks. so it was like unknowingly and uncontrollably.
i broke into a paroxysm of sobs today(((:
i wanna lean.
delifrance! yayyyyy. potato(: yum yum. *bites.
sorry i took like freaking long to eat, was just enjoying lah. feel like eating it now man:(
roaming is niceee(: and that place outside national library is damn good, i think. a nice place whr ppl can sit down and talk. and jus talk. and i realised, i quite like the red and black cloth thingy on top on the ceiling. it was like smth for me to look at when i'm thinking. smth that i can observe and really look at. and yeah, i like to tell my old long grandmother stories. so nice to jus talk and talk and talk and talk and talk. and still, talk. and u did jus listening and mayb silently horrified by my past pathetic miserable life. ahahaha, yawn. yeah, if only time was limitless. then i dun have to stop, like halfway, seriously. really, halfway. so anti-climax okay. i was quite disappointed and upset bout having to stop pouring stories. it was halfway through. then it jus stopped. blood hell, so sad lah. so everything was like left hanging in mid air. not done at all. and i dunno when i can ever say finish. cos there's always a limit to time, sadly. yeah.
okay. i'm sorry for my attitude, again. sometimes, u have to let me go abit. there's things that i cant tell each one of u. like for example, i cant tell louis this. but i can tell u. mayb i cant tell ther or yi this thing. but mayb i can tell louis. it's liddat. so some things, are jus not meant for u to hear. its not that i dun wanna tell. i'm willing to share, totally. but some things, i cant jus tell u. there are consequences for me to bear. wad if everything is totally ruined aft i tell u? i'm held responsible, and i dun wanna ruin things u know. yeah, so pls, jus dun worry and there are actually quite some things that i really cant tell you. for the world's good. and most of all, for your good. and some of these things that i cant tell u, are the reasons for my sudden moodswings or say, sudden attitudes and stupid behavious. yeah, so jus ignore me. i admit there are reasons that cause my attitudes, of coures rite? ppl do things for a reason, they dun do things for no particular reason. but i jus cant tell u:(
jus forget that i ever existed. since the world bloody dun give a damn.
okay, attitude. sorry. *sticks out tongue*
" why is it that u always have the way ? " i noe u meant nth, when u said that. but it actually reminds me of how i was totally pampered. and the result of it, most significantly. ultimate unhappiness and depression to the max. yeah. i wanted to say this in my previous post or wat, forgot. i jus dun wan ppl to pamper me anymore. no way man. dun pamper me. dun always give in to me. dun treat me so nicely. jus dun pamper me. i wish for a day when ppl will jus snap at me, tell me off for giving stupid unnecessary attitudes. or mayb even slap me or smth, for doing wrong things all the time. i wish for such a day to come. and i jus dun wan to be pampered anymore. no way. and no more.
i'm eating corn now. yayyyyy. *jumps ard with happiness* my mum is gonna slaughter me if she see me eating it in my room.
i dream to be a counsellor. now.
What are the personal qualities needed?
- concern for people
- empathy
- openness
- emotional stability
- a strong and genuine desire to help others
- interpersonal and communication skills
u know. i think i must work on these. openness, okay, i mus try to open up, LOL. emotional stability. gosh, i mus really work on that. first thing first, must achieve it. then the difficult part comes, mus maintain it. i cant even really achieve emotional stability, much less say maintain emotional stability. *laughs* okay, so right now, trying to achieve emotional stability. i'm trying(: and i'll go to ppl more. i do go to ppl, i'm not some really ultimate superhero girl. though i dun like the feeling of going to ppl, i will. i know its jus the right thing to do. and i so dun like it also, when i know ppl worries bout me. hell, no pls. dun ever worry bout me. so redundant and unnecessary. i rather u go worry bout urself. ahahahaha. okay, all these are beside the point man. the main point is..
i dream to become a counsellor(:
and if u wanna know, today was jus damn nice. though talking ended adruptly. and it was left hanging in mid air. but nvm, at least i said quite alot(: ahaha, i wanna continue and say everything. anyway, the horrible part haven even come! u haven even hear the most heart wrenching part okay. laughing my head off now. those that u heard was nothing compared to the other parts. listen more next time(: i take blows, and i'm not afraid to be hurt. i'm not afraid.
suddenly thot of disgusting ppl. and realised, the most retarded thing is some of them are actually my friends. like -.- damn dumb. yeah, my friends. dunno how to react to them sometimes, totally. and it feels good and weird at the same time, telling them directly in the face " u're the disgusting one lor. " gosh. i said things liddat to ppl. my friends. but jus trying to be frank. i know these friends understand. whereas those extreme disgusting ones, i dun even wanna talk to them. first, they are so not my friend, and they are so disgusting i think seeing them on the streets will cause me to lose my appetite for one week or smth. okay, exaggerating, but really. they're disgusting. yes, disgusting, the rightful word to describe them. and this is to give my disgusting nice friends some mental preparation. that is,
i'm gonna dedicate this one whole long scolding paragraph to those extreme disgusting ppl in this world. pls look forward to it. thank you(:
shit. i dunno why, that song in inotstupidtoo is stil in my head. jus keep going on and on non-stop. i wish it will stop soon lor, make me wanna stare into air and give that i'm-depressed look. haha. and ur voice also. still in my head, i dunno why. TSK. so irritating, ahahaha. oh, that friend whom i called at 1030 pm sharp. i'm worried and hope u're fine. i'm terribly sorry i gave slow and late response:(
okay, i jus realised this post is dreadfully too long. way too long. i think nobody will go and read this whole long chunks of shit of mine. but i'm like self-indulging too much. typing on and typing on. non-stop. ahahahah, that's jun.
naggy. long-winded. rubbish.
i'm jus like that. idiotic huh? stab me lor :DD and rmb to carry me, run outside to the roads and throw me onto an on-coming car. AHAHAHA. sadistic.
okay. byebye lah, i know i said too much, lol. OH, i wanna watch wolf creek. and get freaked out, hopefully. like how i freaked out when watching exorcism of emily rose. quite an experience u know. and i think i wont cry rite? =/
love,
jun.
is it supposed to be some special thing between u and me? i'm confused.
*coughs loudly*
okay. tis morning was stupid. set alarm to wake up early, then fell back to slp cos i was like " aiya, so happy finally no nit wake early can slp more. yayyyyyyyy. " yeah, den went back to slp. then woke up at EIGHT THIRTY. like wth, that's bloody late. so i rushed, then went to school. sorry louis, i guess u waited like damn long until u were so bored and went to take pictures of the koi pond. rofl. and thanks for spending time to teach me maths and physics. i nit more! ahaha.
den aft that was eating at mac at tampines. yayyyyyy. fries and nuggets(: then went to get a replacement for louis's dramaly confiscated soccer ball, lol. at sportslink. haha, the first one that we saw, the shiny one. ahahhaaha, so nice lor. its so shiny we can like see our reflection on the ball. not kidding. not exaggerating okay. yeah, so looked and looked, still, think that shiny ball is the nicest. then had to make decision. so one or two? i chose two. ahahaha, it's call fate. it's that shiny ball. yayyyyyyy. I CHOSE IT OKAY(: so bought it and went home. my books were making me drop. i thot my wrist was gonna come off or smth. then can see those stupid disgusting veins literally popping out. YUCKS.
reached home. rush.
yayyyyyy i cried today(: man. i think, from now on, the only times that i'd really cry out loud and happily is when i'm in the cinema. and so, i love movies(: it's nice to get carried away, totally engrossed into the movie, and not think bout anything in this whole wide world. nth, jus the movie(: this is bit outdated ald anyway. inotstupidtoo was nice lah, really tells wat we teenagers think. totally. anyway, that part where tom fixed the labtop for his dad and happily brought it to his office for him, yet got a scolding in the end. well, i think this happens not only between children and parents. it happens to everybody. between friends, couples, any kinda relationship. it happens. so u jus take ppl for granted, and dun even appreciate wat they have done for u. and yet, worse still, in return for their kindness, throw them some totally ungrateful attitude and rubbish. jus craps. it happens. okay, wadever about that part. one scene that left a great impression was that part where chen cai's dad fell and his head hit the ground and blood jus came flowing out. yeah, that part left a deep impression. first, they punched him when he went to his son's rescue. like ouch can, my heart totally felt pain when i see them punching him. slow mo somemore sia, effect, ahahaha. then he actually fell, and then row. then hit the ground. then :(((((((
tears jus came, and flow. couldn't control at all. and before i know it, tears were flowing out uncontrollably. i din even felt like tears were gonna come out. and they were ald flowing down my cheeks. so it was like unknowingly and uncontrollably.
i broke into a paroxysm of sobs today(((:
i wanna lean.
delifrance! yayyyyy. potato(: yum yum. *bites.
sorry i took like freaking long to eat, was just enjoying lah. feel like eating it now man:(
roaming is niceee(: and that place outside national library is damn good, i think. a nice place whr ppl can sit down and talk. and jus talk. and i realised, i quite like the red and black cloth thingy on top on the ceiling. it was like smth for me to look at when i'm thinking. smth that i can observe and really look at. and yeah, i like to tell my old long grandmother stories. so nice to jus talk and talk and talk and talk and talk. and still, talk. and u did jus listening and mayb silently horrified by my past pathetic miserable life. ahahaha, yawn. yeah, if only time was limitless. then i dun have to stop, like halfway, seriously. really, halfway. so anti-climax okay. i was quite disappointed and upset bout having to stop pouring stories. it was halfway through. then it jus stopped. blood hell, so sad lah. so everything was like left hanging in mid air. not done at all. and i dunno when i can ever say finish. cos there's always a limit to time, sadly. yeah.
okay. i'm sorry for my attitude, again. sometimes, u have to let me go abit. there's things that i cant tell each one of u. like for example, i cant tell louis this. but i can tell u. mayb i cant tell ther or yi this thing. but mayb i can tell louis. it's liddat. so some things, are jus not meant for u to hear. its not that i dun wanna tell. i'm willing to share, totally. but some things, i cant jus tell u. there are consequences for me to bear. wad if everything is totally ruined aft i tell u? i'm held responsible, and i dun wanna ruin things u know. yeah, so pls, jus dun worry and there are actually quite some things that i really cant tell you. for the world's good. and most of all, for your good. and some of these things that i cant tell u, are the reasons for my sudden moodswings or say, sudden attitudes and stupid behavious. yeah, so jus ignore me. i admit there are reasons that cause my attitudes, of coures rite? ppl do things for a reason, they dun do things for no particular reason. but i jus cant tell u:(
okay, attitude. sorry. *sticks out tongue*
" why is it that u always have the way ? " i noe u meant nth, when u said that. but it actually reminds me of how i was totally pampered. and the result of it, most significantly. ultimate unhappiness and depression to the max. yeah. i wanted to say this in my previous post or wat, forgot. i jus dun wan ppl to pamper me anymore. no way man. dun pamper me. dun always give in to me. dun treat me so nicely. jus dun pamper me. i wish for a day when ppl will jus snap at me, tell me off for giving stupid unnecessary attitudes. or mayb even slap me or smth, for doing wrong things all the time. i wish for such a day to come. and i jus dun wan to be pampered anymore. no way. and no more.
i'm eating corn now. yayyyyy. *jumps ard with happiness* my mum is gonna slaughter me if she see me eating it in my room.
i dream to be a counsellor. now.
What are the personal qualities needed?
- concern for people
- empathy
- openness
- emotional stability
- a strong and genuine desire to help others
- interpersonal and communication skills
u know. i think i must work on these. openness, okay, i mus try to open up, LOL. emotional stability. gosh, i mus really work on that. first thing first, must achieve it. then the difficult part comes, mus maintain it. i cant even really achieve emotional stability, much less say maintain emotional stability. *laughs* okay, so right now, trying to achieve emotional stability. i'm trying(: and i'll go to ppl more. i do go to ppl, i'm not some really ultimate superhero girl. though i dun like the feeling of going to ppl, i will. i know its jus the right thing to do. and i so dun like it also, when i know ppl worries bout me. hell, no pls. dun ever worry bout me. so redundant and unnecessary. i rather u go worry bout urself. ahahahaha. okay, all these are beside the point man. the main point is..
i dream to become a counsellor(:
and if u wanna know, today was jus damn nice. though talking ended adruptly. and it was left hanging in mid air. but nvm, at least i said quite alot(: ahaha, i wanna continue and say everything. anyway, the horrible part haven even come! u haven even hear the most heart wrenching part okay. laughing my head off now. those that u heard was nothing compared to the other parts. listen more next time(: i take blows, and i'm not afraid to be hurt. i'm not afraid.
suddenly thot of disgusting ppl. and realised, the most retarded thing is some of them are actually my friends. like -.- damn dumb. yeah, my friends. dunno how to react to them sometimes, totally. and it feels good and weird at the same time, telling them directly in the face " u're the disgusting one lor. " gosh. i said things liddat to ppl. my friends. but jus trying to be frank. i know these friends understand. whereas those extreme disgusting ones, i dun even wanna talk to them. first, they are so not my friend, and they are so disgusting i think seeing them on the streets will cause me to lose my appetite for one week or smth. okay, exaggerating, but really. they're disgusting. yes, disgusting, the rightful word to describe them. and this is to give my disgusting nice friends some mental preparation. that is,
i'm gonna dedicate this one whole long scolding paragraph to those extreme disgusting ppl in this world. pls look forward to it. thank you(:
shit. i dunno why, that song in inotstupidtoo is stil in my head. jus keep going on and on non-stop. i wish it will stop soon lor, make me wanna stare into air and give that i'm-depressed look. haha. and ur voice also. still in my head, i dunno why. TSK. so irritating, ahahaha. oh, that friend whom i called at 1030 pm sharp. i'm worried and hope u're fine. i'm terribly sorry i gave slow and late response:(
okay, i jus realised this post is dreadfully too long. way too long. i think nobody will go and read this whole long chunks of shit of mine. but i'm like self-indulging too much. typing on and typing on. non-stop. ahahahah, that's jun.
naggy. long-winded. rubbish.
i'm jus like that. idiotic huh? stab me lor :DD and rmb to carry me, run outside to the roads and throw me onto an on-coming car. AHAHAHA. sadistic.
okay. byebye lah, i know i said too much, lol. OH, i wanna watch wolf creek. and get freaked out, hopefully. like how i freaked out when watching exorcism of emily rose. quite an experience u know. and i think i wont cry rite? =/
love,
jun.
is it supposed to be some special thing between u and me? i'm confused.
*coughs loudly*
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