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Y 08 February 2006
i wanted to punch the labtop, i swear. thank god i din.
within like seconds. my mood can change so much. i got like really frustrated. i hate it like mad when my parents go screaming at the top of their lungs. at my brother that is. i dun like it at all. it makes me feel that things are in a total mess. i hate getting frustrated at home. i will jus end up feeling real helpless. and at times like this, i meet ppl who nits help. but i nit help too. and i wan to help them too. so how to help when i nit help too? and thus, i end up hiding my troubles. and i look okay, i sincerely hope.
i hate to guess. since when has my life been bout guessing. its so stupidly irritating. and so much for guessing and guessing. i guess the answer is like right in front of me now. this whole thing is so dumb. why dun u say the answer straight into my face? i wanna stop guessing.
today is rather. i dunno wat to say. i totally hate english lessons okay. the whole entire time i was like doing my very best to keep myself awake. and i was like telling bryan, why aft so long den i look at the clock but yet only one min pass? den he laughed. time sorta stopped okay. it felt like two thousand years lah, lol. den i sorta got worried during lessons, bout some things that are worth worrying bout. and i'm forever rite. i can see through so many ppl. and i'm glad i can, so i can help at least(:
so u dun wanna hold on? u wanna give everything up? u dun wan any personal attachment or wadever u call it. u're not opening up. dun worry. i've got an axe. i'll hack open ur lock okay(: i will try like i tried before. i rested. rested enough(: its time to go again! and i so sadly forgot to bring my beloved white sweater today. food warm my stomach :D but i really nit white sweater to warm my skin.
maths test, geog test, chinese test, english test, chem test, history test, ss test, pe test. wadever test. i jus panic. but physics test. i dun, and i dunno why. i love physics(:
i wanna see u smile! and come to think of it, i guess i have to learn to let go. if u wanna leave, go ahead. by all means. Jun_
