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16 February 2006
oh well.chem test sucked big time.i was falling aslp, stuggling to concentrate and wake up. when i finally managed to, my head started to throb really badly. i had to continue doing the damn test. so much for staying back to study in sch ytd. i screwed all up, this time. i dun even rmb any questions that was in the paper. i dun even rmb any of the answers that i wrote. mus be some nonsensical crap anyway. then to join in the fun, body started to ache real badly.went home. thermometer. 38.2 degrees, sighs.slp.woke up, cry. oh man. this is some experience for me. first time in my entire life i cried cos i'm not feeling well. i rmb reading yuan's blog. that post when she posted when she was sick. jus recently. i wondered at that time how does it feel like, to cry cos u're not feeling well. there, i have it. i cant even open my damn mouth to talk properly. it jus hurts like hell. feel like cutting off my damn throat. *stabs throat. on the way home, all i was trying to firgure out was whr the hell is all those pain coming from. well, it seems like its coming from like everywhr. my limbs, my idiotic head, my sickening throat, my back, my neck, my shoulders, even my stupid ears. yeah, so that was body pain, i dun even know why. my bag was like heavy also, sick lah. and my dinner is like porridge with soy sauce plus bread. today is like pure hell. and thanks alot to those who showed concern. thanks ryan, jon [ hey, i'm not upset or wat. i'm ill u see.] , and john [ was i like very irritating? like still talking rubbish non-stop even when i'm sick xD ] and sorry to all whom i sorta fakely smiled to, or showed attitude to. i wasnt conscious lah, i was half way into coffin then. and the whole world is telling me it's my fault cos i slp at 2am for the past how many years. oh well, this is my limit. after this trend of slp-at-2am-everyday for weeks, now i fall sick. hello, greefy herogirl is human too. i will finally stop sleeping at that unearthly time today. i'll slp before 2am.
i'm fine. dun worry. i screwed up chem test totally, gonna fail like shit or wat. that is sad.it feels weird that i jus went, "she's a bastard." ahhhhhh.love,Jun.i wanna eat chocos:(
please believe me again at 10:12 PM
