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Y 07 February 2006
wad a day.
i was so freaking frustrated okay. like thank god that bus39 i took was one with air-con. if its one with windows wide open, i would have happily threw my damn phone out of the window okay. yeah, i was so that frustrated i really wanted to throw the phone away, hoping it will jus vanish from my sight forever. it's so shitty.
so after all these bout trying to help ppl. i realised i'm the one who nits help actually. it's so dumb i feel like killing myself. i feel useless. so after everything, in this process of helping ppl, and so much for helping ppl, i get confused myself. and i get frustrated, i get paranoid. i feel helpless. i feel lost, i dunno wat to do. so i was happily trying to give ppl advice bout this problem, in the end, only to realise i myself have this prob. how to help others when i cant even solve my own damn problem. i'm jus too naive. i'm jus so troubled.
i'm confused. i seriously dunno wat to do. so am i suppose to do this, or do that ? both seems like undoable. so wat? do nothing? nobody can decide for me. i so have to decide myself. i dunno how to. yet, i have to.
i'm frustrated. so gonna vent it out through some stupid ways. i dunno wat. i dun even feel like eating. i dun even feel like talking or anything. i dunno how to put it. dunno how to say it. dunno how to express it. this is jus so frustrating i cant handle. all of a sudden, i jus feel like history is repeating itself.
frustrated. troubled. confused. this is my life right now.
please dun tell me u're going ald:( anyway, thanks ryan(((: u're loved. _Jun. go and punch the wall, starve myself and scream at the mirror okay.
