i din know it can get this difficult jus to decide on smth.

MY GOSH. my sis's bf coming visit us. I'M SO EXCITED CAN. i'm gonna smile ever that brightly to my sis's bf later. it's my sis's first bf okay. and speaking of this. if that whoever guy ever hurt my sis too deep. I'M GONNA MURDER HIM ALIVE AND THROW HIM INTO FIRE.

my sis jus have to say "can dun use my brush anot." tsk. fine lor, I USE MY HAND COMB :DD

OKAY. they are here like right in my house now. my gosh, this is so weird man. i'm excited bout my sis having her first bf. ahahaha. okay, he's quite a friendly guy, not the shy type that i cant stand. and he's so tall lah tsk. my sis look like so tiny when she stand beside him, lol. but awwwww, like so sweet, both of them. haha, reminds me. i was walking to take mrt then saw this couple, lol. also look like so sweet. i actually feel happy for couples like this. gosh.

okay, my sis's bf commented on me using that brush he gave her. TSK FINE LAH DUN USE LOR. that's wat i said.

and he like bought so many different flavours of marshmallows for my sis. includes strawberry chocolate, normal plain ones, lemon, and two other unknown flavours. and i ate, and now i'm coughing non-stop =x

i love seeing yi's posts. pls do continue blogging liddat okay, yi? and i dunno why i feel like i've been neglecting everybody. louis, ther, yi. i feel rather bad bout this. sorry, guys. i dunno why and since when, my life seems to be filled up to the brim. i cant seem to find time to do things. not even time for simple things. and i wanna go to the beach okay. is sam on earth to go to the beach with me? =D

whr am i suppose to dig out time to go running?
and yeah, jus walking ard those places i miss going to. like SUNTEC.

my heart contracts. i'm scared. jus pure scared. i dun like so many things. and u dunno. i dun wan all these to make things worse. i think it will. it's just me. and it's jus you. we dun tally. get it?

dun wan changes in my life and dun wan changes in ur life. i'm afraid of changes.

once again, sorry to ther and yi and louis.
i cant find time:( but i promise i will pay more attention to u all, and find more time to go out with u all or wat. thanks for giving me advices and opinions. thanks for standing by me. and pls jus dun keep anything from me. i love u guys!

i'm thinking bout wat ther said. fears increasing.

and i think. this is like the first ever time in my life where the most "i dunno" come out of my damn mouth. i have never ever say "i dunno" so many freaking times. cos i always know. i know myself so well, i'm sure of things, i know wat's on my mind and stuffs. but this time, seems like there's too much. too much i cant put them together and come up with a "i know." and so, i jus keep saying i dunno. it's making me feel stupid. i dun wan to say i dunno can. its not me at all to say i dunno. so not me lor. and thank you for asking. i jus realised i'm the one pressurizing myself. TSK, so lame can. stupid.

i nit more confidence.

and u know wat, its not me to be not confident also. since when am i liddat?!

shit. again, i dun feel like going to sch tmr. argh. i think this i-dun-wan-to-go-to-sch feeling is the result of my trying to escape. argh:(

i thot of a solution. mayb i should jus vanish. NO MORE PROBLEMS THEN.

and since WHEN is my life bout being scared? tsk. so irritating can.

okay. i'm jus scared. never ever so low level in confidence in my life.

i wan to die lah, tsk.

OHHH, CGH was nice. the only time today i wasnt feeling scared. physiotherapy like so interesting eh. louis, go for it! and i still wanna be a counsellor can. and that nice manager or watever, that guide. she told me that counselloring can be very simple.

"all u have to do is to listen to ppl, with an open mind."

yeah. she said it can be that simple. but of cos, if u wanna be a professional and wan to provide effective counselloring, u have to go to uni okay. -stress-

i took so many thousand postcards and i love them! and it was nice to walk ard at suntec alone.

tmr is friday. YES WEEKENDS :DDD

i nit rest. a shoulder to lean on. sea to look at. and security :(

why do we always get shits in times of importance?

u know what? i'm actually impressed by the way u can react. touched okay(':

TIME. pls jus drop from the sky.

dunno-ing away,
jun.

i'm actually giving in ald.