still in search of that bond.

conscious day it was today. so rare can. alright, i'm gonna slp early from now on, lol. ytd was totally horrible. i had that i'm-fainting-anytime feeling the whole long freaking day. i started to tremble and tremble. felt so weak and dead. i couldn't find the strength to play cello properly okay:(

having this i-dunno-wads-bothering-me thing again. like, the second time of my life, ahah. i dunno? u know, its not me to say i dunno. i dun wan to say i dunno. but i really dunno.

i hate it when i get quiet. i'm looking for the bond. or mayb i'm jus quiet today. i feel somewhat moodless, i dunno why. i rather cry out loud and clear, instead of keeping quiet. when i keep quiet, u seem to keep quiet too. but at least the good thing is i feel comfortable(: it feels like i can jus sit there forever and we can jus keep quiet altogether. but the silence that fell sorta really set me to think again. why is there silence? and does silence link to the bond that i'm looking for? i'm still wondering.

only one. touched my heart. *stares into air. listen*

for many times of the day, i stare into air.

it's because i'm trying to figure out wat's on my mind.

that's not me at all.

above all these unescapable thoughts, nice day today(:

i'm not ribena okay, tsk. marshmallow is nice(: and i cant bear to eat the mars bar.

i'm craving for some food. but i actually dunno wat food exactly. for the god knows how many times today, i really dunno okay.

motivational camp tomorrow. fri. sat. tsk. taking up three wonderful days, make me feel as if my time is totally sucked away. no time. to roam. i miss space outside NLB:(

those red red black black.

some secret task i assigned myself. mission possible i call it(:

staring,
jun.

when is time gonna drop down from the sky so i can watch wolf creek? and fd3.