Love, Hate, which to choose? <body>
<body bgcolor="black">
Y 21 April 2006
accumulative shits.
ahh. okay, mayb i jus lied. i AM feeling stressed up. but no, i'm not unapproachable just becos i'm stressed up. as long as i'm still sane and walking around, u guys can approach me abt anything and everything(:
oh wth. so midyear is next next week. well, i've thot of all the possible end results. it's either this, or that. i'm mentally, physically and emotionally prepared for it all. watever that comes. yeah, i dun yearn for complete success anymore. slightly impossible. now all i want to do is to put in my best, and achieve maximum improvement. yea, improvement is the word(: even if i dun do exceptionally well, which i wished for, at least i do my best for this time and make improvements. at least i dun slide backwards or remain stagnant. yeah, i'll be disappointed if i dun achieve wat i aimed for, but at least improving is better than noughts. and, once again, it's been proven that time jus, dun wait for anybody.
had 2.4km run yesterday. well, my last "sprint" was thanks to nurimen. OKAY, it wasnt anything like a sprint mayb, cos i was ald gonna vomit anytime. but it was at least an increase in speed and energy. when i was reaching the end point, he told me to run together with him, and of cos he was running fast. yeah, i ran together with him. till the end. i found it rather, amazing. wat puzzled me was whr did that energy come from? u know, i was really tired at the end of the 2.4km run. i wanted to vomit out all my organs okay. HAHA. eeek. so? proven. encouragement and company as such, do help(: it was a little act of encouragement, but it made a difference. that was an example of how wonderful enrouragements and companies are. dearjohn, u dun have to do anything to lighten my burden(: ur company acts as a form of encouragement. and that is all i nit, actually.
it will be over soon.
shoulder aches again. stupid burning pain.
life is getting way too wearisome. i dun feel like eating and i cant fall aslp even when i'm so bloody exhausted and body tensed up. weirdo.
history test tomorrow. i hate tests on saturdays alright, make my weekend totally stressful.
studying for humanities will be a tough job. *clears congested brain for heavy contents.
