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01 May 2006
01 May 2006
vomit out those words within.
alright, a lil post while i wait for dearjohn to reach my house, or at least reply my sms. was blog hopping and suddenly thot of reading somebody's blog. its jus this one random person, nth special. i jus thot of reading this person's blog. so i read(:
well, wat was written in the blog. is exactly the same as my thots. my opinions. mdm suriadi spoke to us on thursday after lessons. she said that she want a bonded fourNurture. a class with people interacting with each other, not keeping to themselves all the time. i think it's understood that all of us have our own cliques and friends. but recently, i've come to realise that our class... how to put it? i jus think we should and can be more bonded. and people, everybody, should be more participative and interactive. am i using the right words? haha. i like those little little conversations here and there. those random people. i just wish everybody will open up and talk to everybody else. wad's the point of having a class if we all just stick to our own friends and stay comfortable in our own cliques? get wat i mean? last time, some classmates jus feel so alien to me. somehow i feel like they are from another world totally different. haha, oh i'm a weirdo. have gotten the chance to know these people better nowadays, and i realised that they are all nice people. nice people to talk to, nice classmates. they are not the aliens. i am(: often, people jus dun wan to step out of their comfort zone. they stay the way they are, they dun wan to change, and as a result, they dun get to know people, and people dun get to know them either. reminds me of the fact that i myself dun like small talks. ah, small talks. i dun like them abit, haha, so if u are some random people happen to be talking to me and u feel that i'm rather uncomfortable or awkward, hee, it's just me(: mayb i should try to break my comfortable shell and learn the art of small talks -.- haha.
exams. ah.
i have this feeling inside me, telling me that ohh, most probably u jus wont do well. i hate that so much. i think it has smth to do with confidence. also, i havent been studying well. all the little failures and processes here and there for the past few weeks are wearing me out. shit, i intended to study for midyear WEEKS ago. ( so i cant understand those people who realise that exams are coming like the week before. ) but all the tests, homeworks and the tiredness. i'm just falling lah. i dunno why, i think the tiredness of everything wears my determination away. well, its not as bad as it seems, but it's just bad. that i'm feeling so tired i dun feel like studying anymore. it's sad too, how i sorta want to start my revisions weeks ago, but nth is done in the end. i think i dun have the rights to point my fingers at others and criticise. alright, wait till i get good results, then i criticise. okay? HAHA. in the mean time, midyr will be another learning experience. might jolly well be another failure of mine, but, no failures, only learning experiences(: i know, like how john said, that we most probably wont do well for this exam, cos the fact is we dun have enough time to study. a fact is a fact. but like i said before, all i wan now is improvements. at least, improvements. if my results improve at least abit, i'll naturally feel more motivated to study more. it's all that i hope for now, really. improvements. wat we sow we reap, that's wat i hear so often. yes, we work, we get the results. we sit here and remain stagnant, the results will tell too. i'm just afraid, i dun wan that kinda lousy results again. i dun want. it reflects so badly on wat kinda person i am and wat i've been doing. ah.
i dun understand the feeling i get when i look at my coordinate geometry and linear law test. for like how long, this is the first time i passed my maths test with human results(((((((: i dun understand people who gets single digit results. but the feeling i get is, did i really do it? haha that kinda thing. it's so hard to believe i improved and produced reasonable results. it's so hard to believe. like a dream come true. well, i guess i'm mental now. have been too into working and working and tired and tired for the past dunno how many years until i dunno how to react when i get the results. it's just, too much working and too little results- getting. bad for health, haha.
alright, in the end, this supposedly little post turned into a long post. thanks to dearjohn who insists on buying bai tang gao on his way here WHEN HE DUN EVEN KNOW WAT IS THAT. wad a waste of time, haha. is bai tang gao such a unknown thing? how come he dunno wat is that? i find it amazing that somtimes, john seems to know alot of things of the world that i dunno. but yet, sometimes he jus suddenly look so suagu. so he dunno wat's bai tang gao =/ and he never eat chou dou fu before. is that sua gu? hahaha. okay, shall not spend time discussing whether john's sua gu anot.cos the fact is he is sua gu
maths will become my best friend sooner or later. jus wait.
i love the calculator and those lovely stationaries(:
off to wooooooooorrrrrrrrrk!
striving,
jun.
ah. are u regretting?
alright, a lil post while i wait for dearjohn to reach my house, or at least reply my sms. was blog hopping and suddenly thot of reading somebody's blog. its jus this one random person, nth special. i jus thot of reading this person's blog. so i read(:
well, wat was written in the blog. is exactly the same as my thots. my opinions. mdm suriadi spoke to us on thursday after lessons. she said that she want a bonded fourNurture. a class with people interacting with each other, not keeping to themselves all the time. i think it's understood that all of us have our own cliques and friends. but recently, i've come to realise that our class... how to put it? i jus think we should and can be more bonded. and people, everybody, should be more participative and interactive. am i using the right words? haha. i like those little little conversations here and there. those random people. i just wish everybody will open up and talk to everybody else. wad's the point of having a class if we all just stick to our own friends and stay comfortable in our own cliques? get wat i mean? last time, some classmates jus feel so alien to me. somehow i feel like they are from another world totally different. haha, oh i'm a weirdo. have gotten the chance to know these people better nowadays, and i realised that they are all nice people. nice people to talk to, nice classmates. they are not the aliens. i am(: often, people jus dun wan to step out of their comfort zone. they stay the way they are, they dun wan to change, and as a result, they dun get to know people, and people dun get to know them either. reminds me of the fact that i myself dun like small talks. ah, small talks. i dun like them abit, haha, so if u are some random people happen to be talking to me and u feel that i'm rather uncomfortable or awkward, hee, it's just me(: mayb i should try to break my comfortable shell and learn the art of small talks -.- haha.
exams. ah.
i have this feeling inside me, telling me that ohh, most probably u jus wont do well. i hate that so much. i think it has smth to do with confidence. also, i havent been studying well. all the little failures and processes here and there for the past few weeks are wearing me out. shit, i intended to study for midyear WEEKS ago. ( so i cant understand those people who realise that exams are coming like the week before. ) but all the tests, homeworks and the tiredness. i'm just falling lah. i dunno why, i think the tiredness of everything wears my determination away. well, its not as bad as it seems, but it's just bad. that i'm feeling so tired i dun feel like studying anymore. it's sad too, how i sorta want to start my revisions weeks ago, but nth is done in the end. i think i dun have the rights to point my fingers at others and criticise. alright, wait till i get good results, then i criticise. okay? HAHA. in the mean time, midyr will be another learning experience. might jolly well be another failure of mine, but, no failures, only learning experiences(: i know, like how john said, that we most probably wont do well for this exam, cos the fact is we dun have enough time to study. a fact is a fact. but like i said before, all i wan now is improvements. at least, improvements. if my results improve at least abit, i'll naturally feel more motivated to study more. it's all that i hope for now, really. improvements. wat we sow we reap, that's wat i hear so often. yes, we work, we get the results. we sit here and remain stagnant, the results will tell too. i'm just afraid, i dun wan that kinda lousy results again. i dun want. it reflects so badly on wat kinda person i am and wat i've been doing. ah.
i dun understand the feeling i get when i look at my coordinate geometry and linear law test. for like how long, this is the first time i passed my maths test with human results(((((((: i dun understand people who gets single digit results. but the feeling i get is, did i really do it? haha that kinda thing. it's so hard to believe i improved and produced reasonable results. it's so hard to believe. like a dream come true. well, i guess i'm mental now. have been too into working and working and tired and tired for the past dunno how many years until i dunno how to react when i get the results. it's just, too much working and too little results- getting. bad for health, haha.
alright, in the end, this supposedly little post turned into a long post. thanks to dearjohn who insists on buying bai tang gao on his way here WHEN HE DUN EVEN KNOW WAT IS THAT. wad a waste of time, haha. is bai tang gao such a unknown thing? how come he dunno wat is that? i find it amazing that somtimes, john seems to know alot of things of the world that i dunno. but yet, sometimes he jus suddenly look so suagu. so he dunno wat's bai tang gao =/ and he never eat chou dou fu before. is that sua gu? hahaha. okay, shall not spend time discussing whether john's sua gu anot.
maths will become my best friend sooner or later. jus wait.
i love the calculator and those lovely stationaries(:
off to wooooooooorrrrrrrrrk!
striving,
jun.
ah. are u regretting?
please believe me again at 9:55 AM
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