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Y 14 May 2006
weird.
that gap is weird. it's not jus any other normal gap that form between ppl. it's a GAP. okay, i know i'm talking nonsense. aiyah, just know that there's this bloody gap.
if u were to ask, why do gaps form? well, simple simple. it's because u CHOOSE TO MAKE IT FORM.
eh watever lah, watever okay. wateverwateverwateverwatever. i feel so idunnohowtodescribe. i just feel bad. sad. weird. strange. irritated.
why say nothings bothering when the fact is smth's bothering? wat's the point man, it makes my heart sink even more, knowing that i dunno.
aiya can i jus pretend that there's no sch tmr? i have that i-dun-wan-to-go-to-sch feeling again. sickening.
if u dunno, hello? why dun u ask? u think u sit there and think and the answers will drop down from the sky? oh, funny man. funny. it's not that i dun wan to tell. i know how to prioritise. why interrupt when somebody's telling me his problem? how can i? so obviously i chose to shut up bout wateveruwannaandshouldknowtoo and since then, whr got chance? now that there's a chance u wan to quiet quiet and tell me that u dunno stuffs as if i dun wan to tell u. so how to tell u now that u're all so quiet quiet, it's somehow a signal that tells me u dun wanna talk at all know. i've never blame u for not being there ( it's a fact that i discovered. ) not there so? not that i'm so retarded i cant handle problems myself can. i'm fine alone. i'm really fine like that. happy like that. wat's the problem? wat's the point of drowning urself in self-accusation and self-dislike jus cause of all these? all u can do is improve situations but u're not doing it. i dun wan words. i look at actions. wat's the point of sorrys and i-knows, i dun wan to hear all that. i wan to see ur actions.
sigh, sigh la, sigh, aik, cant find my heart ald, sank too deep. where are all my personal counsellors man.
