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Y 02 June 2006
caffeine addiction.
was carrying the paranoia in me the whole morning, staying in my silent comfort zone.
i refused to exit.
a sudden swing of mood at the later part of the day, i reckon it's no point staying in my comfort zone. i decided to joke.
joking is good, it is, remove the tension.
but joking bout the wrong thing is certainly unbeneficial. it so happened that it slipped my mind again, as always. shit.
i reasoned with myself on the bus, i figured it out.
you can't understand, den shut up. you can't respect, then switch off your unhappiness and get lost. otherwise, stay happy, smile. advice to you, yourself. you, yourself. jun, you, yourself.
i swear nth's bothering me. it's just swings of mood. in short, pms. i just miss the good old days. days of fun, laughters, joy, smiles, tickles and pokes. sweet messages. not all the irritation, long sad messages, silence, looking away, distractions, misunderstandings.
i've had enough. i dun need all these.
mayb something's bothering you? nth's bothering me, i just want to poke and laugh now. i just want what i want. what u and me want.
so much for trying to lighten the stupid atmosphere, you ruined it, joking bout the wrong things. sucker.
listened to somthing bout you, reminded of the pure happy days again. you know what im talking bout yeah? the pure innocent put-our-heads-together days. well, it's smth we cant have now cos things change and in all cases, it changes the same way. complicated and wrong. saddening rite? becos of me. jinx. all i want now is what i want(: i dun like silence. silence speak a thousand words. a thousand confusing words. silence is the universal language of unhappiness. speak with the joy again, please.
see you on monday hmm? saddening:(
i love the john and the aquarium.
it's time i do smth to get that happiness.
but for now, it's fun with the 2e2'04 gang!
this post is at the expense of my punctuality. oh man.
