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04 June 2006
04 June 2006
ignore the what ifs.
okay. so i ended up staying at home the whole day.because sam claims that she has nose cancer. and so i thought i might get shoulder cancer, whoa. so i decided to clear up the study room and the drawers in my room. it's been so long, since i said i wanna clear all the rubbish. thank god i did it today.
anyway, clearing up = massive disposure. one side of the room will become the "i want to keep." the other side will become the dumping ground. and after all the sortings, it's time you hear the tearing-of-the-papers process. what a good way to vent frustration man. u tear up all the papers. and throw them away. like how you dig out all the unhappiness, stab them and get rid of them. nice hmm? (:
the fun part of every cleaning up is that you find things you totally have no impression of. hey, i still have three copies of The Eliasians. and when i find things like such, i take some time and sit down to read, recall the past, smile at the thought of all the memories. then it's all the cards and letters, messages. man, don't i love those cards with long long looonngg messages. yes, i love all the letters/notes/cards which contains long long looonng messages. ahahaha. and up till this very moment, the biggest card i've ever received in my life is the one ther and yi gave to me for my birthday this year! i love that one man. just that it's really too big to be put into the box which i keep all the cards. den i found the disc personality profiling system booklet thingy. i was bored okay, so i did the questions again. man, i changed alot okay. i changed alot. totally stunned by the answers i gave last time, wat the? (: but still, i remain as a C.S.
compliant. correct
personal behaviour: conservative, traditional, neat, calculating, low-keyed, cautious, stable, dependent, systematic, accurate, tantful, diplomatic.
steady. stable.
personal behaviour: conservative, passive, loyal, patient, cooperative, relaxed, possessive, resistant to change, reflective, systematic, deliberate, consistent, steady, predictable.
i'm a precisionist/perfectionist/traditional one.
individuals who are precisionists exhibit a precise, detailed, stable nature. they are systematic thinkers who tend to follow procedures in both personal and business life. they act in a highly tactful, diplomatic fashion and rarely antagonize their associates consciously, taking care to avoid conflict. extremely conscientious, they painstakingly require accuracy in their work and maintain high standards. precisionists like a protected and secure environment with set rules and regulations, and dislike sudden changes. they like people, but prefer having only a few close friends. exactness is of the essence to precisionists, and criticism (their greatest fear) is equated with failure. they can be counted on to carry out tasks correctly. they want exact facts and figures before they will make a decision, and feel uneasy when forced to decide anything quickly. predictability and security are the greatest goals for a precisionist. this is true in all aspects of a precisionist's life, the more stable the environment, the happier they are.
the corrects ; the wrongs.
stable - errrr. i din know i'm stable.
dislike sudden changes - yea man. totally true. i DETEST sudden changes.
they like people, but prefer having only a few close friends - that totally describe me u know. i dun see the point of having so many thousand friends when none's really close to you and understand you well. i dun like shallow friendships:)
their greatest fear/equated with failure - okay, i agree that criticism is somewhat equated with failure cos i think if after doing the work but yet people criticise, it simply means there's room for improvements. not good. but it's so not my greatest fear can. i accept criticisms. welcome(:
they want exact facts and figures - okay. yeah, i'm that kinda how-you-want-me-believe-when-you-cant-prove-to-me person. hah.
the more stable the environment, the happier they are - i think this is crap. who on earth will be happier in a more unstable environment? -.-
i transferred the contents in the secret drawer to a shoe box. new contents for the secret drawer! the shoe box shall be be viewed by Mr John Tay. and after which it will end up in some very nice comfortable place.
after the cleaning up. i came up with a list of things i have to save money for:(
1. whole new set of stationaries. i only have one pathetic pen now.
2. another new set of stationaries for the study room. there's no stationaries in the room.
3. dividers. i cannot stand the messed up state my files are in. i'm systematic.
4. more assessment books. time to work alright.
5. sis's birthday present. 29th of june.
6. father's day. time to thank thenaggy great man in the house.
7. all the movies i'm so gonna catch. i dun care whether i starve or die.
8. little whiteboard. to be hang in the study room wall.
9. phone bills. oh man. shit.
10. instant print of pictures. yay! memories to be printed.
i will think of more. HAH. oh i so love the rag fair theme thingy ryan sent me, i dunno why, it gives a nice feeling. and and and rush which sam sent me. the sounds, noises, melodies(:
i dunno why i feel so warm now. i just feel warm -.-
okay, i swear dearjohn is the only person on earth who will say alright with a =) when he's so gonna be punished. HAHAHAHA. FORCE HIM TO WEAR BRA. oh, i keep forgetting to mention this bra joke about john. i dunno how it started but it just started. we began joking about bras. damn lame okay. and it became that john wears bra -.- wat the? HAHA. den it went on to "eh u remember to take off ur bra before u eat okay later ur bra too tight then u vomit out the food." den he was trying to be funny and he asked me "eh, then flat is what size hmm?" "why? u wanna buy new bra rite?" HAHAHA. okay. watever, just some lame jokes that entertained us.
today is a %$$^&%#$%@ boring, exceptionally quiet day.
:'( somehow, it feels totally different from last time. why?
sigh. when u think u had it all, think again.
jun.
what if one day i'm gone for good, but u're not there to watch me leave?
okay. so i ended up staying at home the whole day.
anyway, clearing up = massive disposure. one side of the room will become the "i want to keep." the other side will become the dumping ground. and after all the sortings, it's time you hear the tearing-of-the-papers process. what a good way to vent frustration man. u tear up all the papers. and throw them away. like how you dig out all the unhappiness, stab them and get rid of them. nice hmm? (:
the fun part of every cleaning up is that you find things you totally have no impression of. hey, i still have three copies of The Eliasians. and when i find things like such, i take some time and sit down to read, recall the past, smile at the thought of all the memories. then it's all the cards and letters, messages. man, don't i love those cards with long long looonngg messages. yes, i love all the letters/notes/cards which contains long long looonng messages. ahahaha. and up till this very moment, the biggest card i've ever received in my life is the one ther and yi gave to me for my birthday this year! i love that one man. just that it's really too big to be put into the box which i keep all the cards. den i found the disc personality profiling system booklet thingy. i was bored okay, so i did the questions again. man, i changed alot okay. i changed alot. totally stunned by the answers i gave last time, wat the? (: but still, i remain as a C.S.
compliant. correct
personal behaviour: conservative, traditional, neat, calculating, low-keyed, cautious, stable, dependent, systematic, accurate, tantful, diplomatic.
steady. stable.
personal behaviour: conservative, passive, loyal, patient, cooperative, relaxed, possessive, resistant to change, reflective, systematic, deliberate, consistent, steady, predictable.
i'm a precisionist/perfectionist/traditional one.
individuals who are precisionists exhibit a precise, detailed, stable nature. they are systematic thinkers who tend to follow procedures in both personal and business life. they act in a highly tactful, diplomatic fashion and rarely antagonize their associates consciously, taking care to avoid conflict. extremely conscientious, they painstakingly require accuracy in their work and maintain high standards. precisionists like a protected and secure environment with set rules and regulations, and dislike sudden changes. they like people, but prefer having only a few close friends. exactness is of the essence to precisionists, and criticism (their greatest fear) is equated with failure. they can be counted on to carry out tasks correctly. they want exact facts and figures before they will make a decision, and feel uneasy when forced to decide anything quickly. predictability and security are the greatest goals for a precisionist. this is true in all aspects of a precisionist's life, the more stable the environment, the happier they are.
the corrects ; the wrongs.
stable - errrr. i din know i'm stable.
dislike sudden changes - yea man. totally true. i DETEST sudden changes.
they like people, but prefer having only a few close friends - that totally describe me u know. i dun see the point of having so many thousand friends when none's really close to you and understand you well. i dun like shallow friendships:)
their greatest fear/equated with failure - okay, i agree that criticism is somewhat equated with failure cos i think if after doing the work but yet people criticise, it simply means there's room for improvements. not good. but it's so not my greatest fear can. i accept criticisms. welcome(:
they want exact facts and figures - okay. yeah, i'm that kinda how-you-want-me-believe-when-you-cant-prove-to-me person. hah.
the more stable the environment, the happier they are - i think this is crap. who on earth will be happier in a more unstable environment? -.-
i transferred the contents in the secret drawer to a shoe box. new contents for the secret drawer! the shoe box shall be be viewed by Mr John Tay. and after which it will end up in some very nice comfortable place.
after the cleaning up. i came up with a list of things i have to save money for:(
1. whole new set of stationaries. i only have one pathetic pen now.
2. another new set of stationaries for the study room. there's no stationaries in the room.
3. dividers. i cannot stand the messed up state my files are in. i'm systematic.
4. more assessment books. time to work alright.
5. sis's birthday present. 29th of june.
6. father's day. time to thank the
7. all the movies i'm so gonna catch. i dun care whether i starve or die.
8. little whiteboard. to be hang in the study room wall.
9. phone bills. oh man. shit.
10. instant print of pictures. yay! memories to be printed.
i will think of more. HAH. oh i so love the rag fair theme thingy ryan sent me, i dunno why, it gives a nice feeling. and and and rush which sam sent me. the sounds, noises, melodies(:
i dunno why i feel so warm now. i just feel warm -.-
okay, i swear dearjohn is the only person on earth who will say alright with a =) when he's so gonna be punished. HAHAHAHA. FORCE HIM TO WEAR BRA. oh, i keep forgetting to mention this bra joke about john. i dunno how it started but it just started. we began joking about bras. damn lame okay. and it became that john wears bra -.- wat the? HAHA. den it went on to "eh u remember to take off ur bra before u eat okay later ur bra too tight then u vomit out the food." den he was trying to be funny and he asked me "eh, then flat is what size hmm?" "why? u wanna buy new bra rite?" HAHAHA. okay. watever, just some lame jokes that entertained us.
today is a %$$^&%#$%@ boring, exceptionally quiet day.
:'( somehow, it feels totally different from last time. why?
sigh. when u think u had it all, think again.
what if one day i'm gone for good, but u're not there to watch me leave?
please believe me again at 11:08 PM
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