i hate it
hate it that i've no internet connection at home
it's totally similar to not havin a computer mans
i've not touch that com of mine fer like...ages?
and thinkon of walkin all the way to this place
to play com ish so "tiring"
ahahahas ish i lazy actualli
i mean at least i wun haf a time limit ?
and there'll be no one to control me over how long im gonna play?
haiis..
if haf internet at home
i guess i'll probably play from mornin till night lers
i've TOTALLY no idea howta spent the rest of todae mans
fer the past few daes
at least there's tons of notes to keep me occupied
to keep me working..
but now,
if i get home now
there'll be no com to keep me company
nobody to pei wo
no phonecalls to hog
no teevee shows to interest me
no place to shop
nothing fer me to play
ahahahs
me so poor thing sehs
tho poor thing oso no one wanna care one
all of them dou you somebodi fer them to care bout liaos..
left me..*cries*
LOLX sen jing bing !
nikki care fer me jiu hao lers.
ahahas the loyal of the loyals
the most zhuan yi guy in the whole universe~! =P
me biase sehs
but it's true, i can swear *cross my heart*
lurve ewww nikki!
ahahahas

hmms..
so sorrie to diao you at times
but i jus can't help it
i can't express the amt of hatred i haf fer you inside me now
i jus dowanna see you at times
i noe i've no rights to hate you or whatsoever
you chose ur own path
and no one's gonna stop you
i ask myself
why mus i treat you this way
i dowanna but howta?

i din noe how competitive one can be..
over things tat are so not impt at all
it seems as tho the friendship we had ish not worthy fer you to treasure it properly
that you had to ruin it...
yourself
i never wanna or even thot of ending this friendship we had
and i had nvr thot tat it'll end cos of such worthless problems
i find it unworthy to end it this way
i never wanted ta end it..
never
though everything will never be the same again
even if somehow we're able to revive this friendship back

up till now
i've owas wanted to know
i've wanted to ask you
but i wun ask it
does winning of that "competition"..
really makes you feel happy?
does it really makes you feel satisfied?
i jus dun get it..
i jus don't.

+ you gif up not be'cos you're losing, you gif up cos the heart ish not at its place nimore. Get this clear.


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