im back. yeaa. happy ? LOL. not've been postin dese few weeks cosh i dunch feel like postin. not dhat i duwanna post. is. i dunna hauter express id out. i've been feelin very random. aft all dhat have happened. theres so many things i wanna sae. bud. they're all kept here. in my heart. and sometimes. id gets so unbearable. there's only one way out. cry myself out-. i can actually feel the heart achin. and id aches wealli alort. no one ever sees der other side of me. no one. not even mie mum. bud. dhis time was realli weally bad. ive never seen myself feelin so horrible before. ive never seen mieself cryin dhis hard before. i can realli feel the world collapsin on me. my life. i hate it. it was so terrible. so horrible. dart i jus wanna vent id out. i cant run out of the house. even if i feel like to. i cant scream. definitly not. bud there's no one ad home dart i can cry out on. and then. i did it. i noe its crazy. but/. its the only way out. i guess. i feel so bad. im losing my mind. im fallin behind. im lost. realli lost.

burt. its been weeks. two weeks. i danno whether im okae nort. i still cry. for all i noe. i noe mie feelings. yes. but i wun sae it out. burt. what i hear. hurts. i daydream more often nau. i owaes look in a daze nowadeas. i look dumb. no one will noe mie. no one. its me. thats mie. i dun love mie. i hate me. there's too much ter be said. i'll keep it. inside. for nauw.

three daes ago. mie burfdae. kewl. got presents. bud i haben open any yet. jx brought mie out. we went gai gai. ate pastamania. bud. it wa horrible. yux. LOL. sooo dry. eww. xP. the picture bluff mie. take til so nice ter eat liddart. but then. eee. then we keep changin our plates. dots one was. tOO creammy. bud i tink. straws one was nice. got more tomato sauce. nicer. lol. den go bugis. ahahas. take neooprints!. kewl. usual three times. three different machines. it was a good thing they brought mie out. no nid ter stay ad home and think. ad least. lol. it was fun. very fun. they bought a bag fer mie. i choose der. its twenty five ad first. den i was like.." uncle, ke yi pian yi yi dian marrrr ``?" ahahas. den he help mie cut the price til so much. till eighteen. bud. i tink still can lower der. mmm. LOL. so. its eighteen! diao. den. next day. jiao and cass brought mie ter bugis again nor. den they bought wallet fer me. dhat wallet ex-er den the bagg nor. wharda.

hmms. let's list.

straws and dots __* bag

hiangling, huihoon, lifang and ade __* haben open

lowie and kaiwu __* hippo

jiaming __* a disc

dar and ryiee __* watch

cass and jiao __* myuk wallet

meiying, beverly, li wen __* myuk wallet and pencil case

my mother __* ang pao

and then yes. mie dear char sooo sweet. she made a surprise. god. so sweet! LOL. fifteen candles. a heart-shaped cake. billabong short. and a nwite talk. xD. so late ler lor. like eleven plus. she still come over. den talk till mid night. so kewl. char. love yeuu! hmm. den. whard. i tink kenneth called. yes. he called. bud. jus sae happy burfdae den hang up oreadi. lol. mm. liddart lor. 24th of march. dart's hauw i spent it. not bad. veri sweet. with char's surprise. its a beautiful end fer dart special dae. lorve yeu guys. lotsa.

gosh. i tink im sick. im not feelin like myself. very cold nauw. my head hurts. feel very tired/ . forehead bit warm. bud i duwanna bie sick~/ haw. help. diao. im numb all over. so numb. coldd. yea.

eee. the entry's like not long enough liddart. bud short. easier fer eu all ter read mar. rwite. i tink i gotta rest. bud god. homeworks. hauww ? haai. hug myself. take care gerl.

tink end ler lar. veri long den not nice.

kekes.

mm.

-be strong be strong.